I Dont Miss The Misery (A Tony Perry Fan Fiction)

Chapter 7

Sorry for my absence! Ohmigosh its been so long! I've been so busy with family/summer assignment stuffs. I hope this update keeps y'all happy until the next one! (and btw this chapter might be triggering so be careful!)

"Well, if you're going to stay here, then you're staying in my room.", I say with a smirk.

"I'm okay with that", he says. A smirk creeping up on Tonys face. He's so adorable, and he's staying in MY house in MY room, I thought. How crazy is that?? I don't know what you're thinking but I might start hyperventalating soon.

"I'm gonna take a shower, okay? I'll be right back."

"I'll be here", he said, "waiting." Why did he say waiting? I guess we'll see.

While i was in the shower, I cringed from a stinging feeling on my thighs. Oh yeah.. theres that. I had fresh cuts.. I guess it was cause my dad and all his stupid antics. I never could handle what he did to my brother and I. So it was always taken out on myself. Why is Tony here? You know he'll never love you. or be anything other than your friend. Don't be an idiot.

"SHUT UP!", I screamed into my shower head, I knew no one would hear me scream. Time to take more of the pain out on my self.

I walk out of the tub, midshower. Having my own bathroom has it's perks. I go into the first drawer and pick out my little bag of blades. I have a favorite, which I then choose out of the lot. I'm on the verge of crying, sobs escaping my mouth, and small breathes are the only thing that are keeping me from being dizzy. The feeling of the blade is kind of sweet, though it should not have a taste. I'm just weird. It slides arcoss the middle of my forearm. Leaving a trickle of blood onto my towel. Just a few more cuts and everything will be fine.. In control, In order.

I stand up from sitting on the toilet and search for a band-aid. Shit, I didn't get any from the store.. Well, I can use the shower right? or does that make the blood come more? How would you know? You're just a stupid girl that knows nothing about the real world.  You're right, I am stupid. I'll always be stupid.. Maybe make this one deeper than the others, Tony's in my room though and this is taking forever. Finish your shower you slut. H'es waiting to take advantage of you. Thats what he meant, and you know it.

After my shower, i went to my room. Tony was asleep on my bean bag chair. Should i wake him so he can get in the bed? or just let him sleep? He's so a dorable when he's sleeping... I just wanna hug him aind kiss him..

Once I come out of my thought bubble, I was on Tony's lap (with my pajamas on) and his arms around me.. His heartbeat was loud in my ears but it was calming, and a bit fast. He must be awake now... What's he waiting for? I look up to his face and he's staring at me, with the look that you see in movies..

"What?"

"Oh, uhm.. Nothing.", he says as a smile crawls across his lips. I lean up a little to have a better glimpse of his eyes, and I take the plunge and kiss him.

The kiss lasts no longer than 30 seconds,  and yes I counted. Don't judge me. It was so nice...It was like everything I could dream of. When I pulled away, he slowly, and gently takes my face.

"I'm not done with you yet, babe."

Oh god. He just called me babe.

AWH SNAP! It's gettin a bit saucy up in the hiz' house! lmao anyways I hope this is a good update for you guys, I'm sorry for the triggers and all that my darlings! I did warn y'all sooo... I LOVE YOU GUYS c: