Louis' Little Sister (Niall Horan Fanfiction)*Complete*

Can't take it anymore

   It's been three weeks since the boys left. I texted Niall everyday. We didn't get to Skype or call very often because when he wasn't singing, the boys were sleeping. It was getting hard to stay in contact, but I could tell he wanted to make this work.

   I convinced mum to let me do online school. It was my last two years after all, but I don't know if I really cared about finishing that much. Eleanor and Perrie tried to hang out with me whenever they could. Sometimes it was hard because El always was modeling and Perrie and he band were working on their new album.

   Singing has become a great way to hide out from the rest of the world. I sing whenever I feel stressed over school, or whenever I miss Louis and Niall. I know that it mostly will just bring pain, but I like to look at all the pictures of me and the boys when it gets really bad. I've known them for eight weeks yet I miss them more than I even missed the Lakes. I know that's horrible, but the boys are always there for me.

   I was currently finishing an assignment for my online Advanced Calculus class and watching the X-Factor auditions. Some of these people were really good, some could leave for all I care about their voices. A boy named Mike Wilcox went on next and sang 'Dynamite' by Taio Cruz. He was really good. The auditions were in a different part of the UK right now.

  Just as the finishing credits were going, the announcer said that the auditions were coming to Doncaster in three days. I stared at the screen and realized something had built up inside of me. Hope.

If I could go on the X-Factor and actually make it through, it could take my mind off the pain of missing the boys. It's not like i'm trying to forget them, but singing helps me think things through, and people say I'm really good.

   Before I even know what I'm doing, the phone is in my hand and I'm dialing El's number.

  "Hello?"

"El?"

"Jamie? Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, El. But if I told you something, would you help me with it?"

"Umm, that depends, go ahead."

"Okay, this is gonna sound crazy."

"Jamie! Spit it out!"

"I want to audition for the X-Factor."

   There was silence on the other end of the phone after I said this. I waited and I heard El take a deep breath on the other end of the phone.

"Jamie, I don't know. Can you sing?"

"Yeah, well, at least some people say I can."

"Jamie, I'm just not sure if it's a good idea. You being Louis' sister, you could get a lot of hate saying you're just copying him."

"El, I know that. But I can't take it anymore!"

"Take what?"

"Missing the boys. Singing distracts me from the pain of not seeing them and it also makes me feel like I have a part of them with me. I know that makes no sense..."

"No, it really doesn't, but I understand the needing to feel connected but at the same time hurting. If you're sure you want to, we can call the boys and-"

"NO!"

"What?!"

"El, we can't tell them. They'll feel bad for not being here and all that junk. Just, come with me to the audition in three days? Please?"