Sometimes I feel as if I'm drowning under water but I'm not in water I'm walking father and farther away from my home, from my life, from my future,from my family. My chest starts to tighten and tighten I can't make it go away this time. I gasp for air and slowly sit down while my vision is starting to blur and disappear away from me. Someone grabs me and holds me saying words I don't comprehend. I then come back to reality and my chest lets me breath again and I see Kyle's face staring down at me.
"Are you okay" he asks sincerely
"Yah I... I don't no what... Just happened"
He squeezes me tighter and we sit like this for a while and then we both get up. We start lightly jogging while I drink blue Gatorade. Only twenty more miles until I see my family again, when everything gets back to normal. The government will get rid of that wall thing, we'll get to go back to our homes and live our happy lives again. Everything will be better soon. I think to myself trying to inspire myself to keep going. After a while it starts to get hotter out. I take my sweatshirt off and put it in my stuffed backpack. Kyle and I are both sweating. We are walking now not saying anything.
"There's a gas station coming up about two more miles" Kyle says
"Thank Jesus" I say laughing, we both start laughing.
During our long day walk I sometimes think Kyle isn't human he's so perfect and does everything perfect and barely gets out of breath while running. That thought gets snatched out of my mind. It feels so powerful that I rub my head. It felt like someone took the thought away from me. I think to myself don't get crazy now you can't go crazy yet. I get a pounding headache and I feel like I'm going to three up. We finally get to the gas station and it looks deserted. Kyle goes in first looking on both sides and looking back at me nodding clear. I take a look around and make my way in slowly. I use the bathroom and look in the mirror, I see myself but it's not my normal self. My blonde hair is in two braids my face is dirty and I have scratches along my arms and legs. But it's not only that I look dirty and tired I look sad and depressed I try a smile and it doesn't feel right. I think of happy thoughts and wash my hands. I feel in the back of my pocket for the picture and look at it. Oh how happy everyone looked I smiled and it felt like a real smile. I fold it and put it back in my pocket. I leave the restroom and look for Kyle I can't find him. My heart starts to beat faster. I look around the store and then I hear a flush. I sigh of relief and go towards the men's restroom.
