Mr.Carter

14

[DAMIEN]





I just wish that I can rewind everything. Not everything in general, but the bet. The stupid bet I agreed to. The bet that made me lose the love of my life. She's gone. It's been three days now and I still haven't see her. My baby is gone. Actually gone. So this is what it's like to be heart broken. Love hurts.



I slowly rise up from my bed and turn my head back to the two items I find under her pillow. Still shocked that she's walking around, Lord knows where, carrying a baby inside of her. Do I blame her? No, because I know my ass didn't wrap it up that night. I was so caught up in her, that I couldn't pull out one of those many condom I have hidden in my top drawers.



I know that I don't want a child, but I'll live up to my responsibility. I don't want to be considered as a dead beat father. I had to do with what she's carrying inside of her and if her ass would've came back home, we would've talked about it and raise our own little family.... Together.



My mom is finally getting what she's been asking  for. A grand-baby. I didn't tell her yet, because I wouldn't want her to ask me about Alex and where'd she run off to. Plus, I know she'll beat my ass for doing the thing I did to her. My mom actually liked her. After all the girls I brought home, Alex seemed to be her favorite.

I pick up the damn pregnancy test and stare at it. I didn't know how to read this shit till I asked Karen. She's a nurse and she told me that positive means she's pregnant. I was appalled, so was Eli. Karen was happy because she love kids and works with them a lot at the hospital she works in. I don't know what it takes to be a father, but if I have to take classes, I will. I just need to find Alex first.



I had my guards looking out for her. I had them searching the whole city, but she wasn't found. I even checked her job, but her manager told me that he hasn't seen her. She's like a female version of Waldo.

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[ NARRATOR ]

Karen walks in the hospital, with her uniform on ready to work. After a nice day spending it with Eli, she couldn't possible erase that smile off her face. Recently, she has been searching for wedding dresses with her brides mate, even though it's too early. She's been secretly searching online for decorative invitations and all.



"Good morning Carol." Karen walks to the front desk after checking in.

"Good morning bride to be." Carol says, creating a big smile on Karen's face. She loves the fact that she's becoming Mrs. Karen Haynes. She loves saying that. Karen Haynes, Karen Haynes. It matches so perfectly. "Awh, look at who 's blushing."



"I just love him so much. I can't believe I'm actually getting married."



"Better believe it girl. Pretty soon you'll be switching vows and saying I do."



"I've actually been practicing that in the shower." She smiles. "I do, I do, I do." She sings.



"I don't blame you. That's how I was when I was engaged." She giggles.



Karen giggles also. "I'll catch up with you later. I have to go check on what I have to do."



"All right girl. Meet me up for lunch." Carol adds.



"Will do." Karen walks down the hall and takes the elevator. She ends up on the fourth floor and searches for things to do. While passing a room, she sees someone familiar and comes into a complete stop. She takes a few steps back and looks through the window.

Her eyes widen when she finds Alex sitting in a hospital gown, on the bed, across from this man taking notes. Karen looks at the mail slot and pulls out the papers that were hanging from it and reads it.



{ A/N: I really don't know how these hospital things. Sorry If I did anything wrong}

Patient has been found on the side of the road, unconscious. Alex, has lost of blood due to her obsessive cutting on both of her arms. She's bulimic. Always throws up her food because she feels as if she's not supposed to live. She's in distress and tried killing herself, with an overdose. Luckily, the doctors were allowed to pump it all out before something bad happened.

Patient said that, I quote, "I have been doing this for a while, stopped, then went back to it. Besides the overdosing part, I've been sticking my finger down my throat to vomit all the food that I ate and has been cutting since I was about 15." She was very emotional when she was explaining this to me.

I, Dr. Ramsey, feels as if she needs to go to rehab or an institute if she doesn't situate herself.

Karen looks up from the letter with her eyes widen at Alex. Alex, eyes are blood shot red. She looks like she hasn't eaten in days. Karen looks at her arms and finds major cuts there.



Karen hold the paper in her hands and walks downstairs and calls Eli.

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[DAMIEN]

I've received a call from Eli, saying that Karen saw Alex in the hospital. I quickly rushed out of my house and to the hospital. Eli was already there with Karen, before me reading this paper. I walk over to them with a bouquet of flowers in my hand and also the necklace I bought her. "Where is she?" I ask Karen.



They look up at me and before she answers, she hands me the sheet of paper. I take it from her and read it. My heart pounded hard against my chest by just reading the first sentence. I move back a little, to sit on the chair, because I couldn't take in what I was reading. There are several things I never knew about her. Cutting, bulimic and overdosing.



Stuff like this, coming from a person I love, breaks my heart. "Where is she?" I ask, stuffing it into my pocket.

"Follow me?" Karen leads the way.



We take the elevator, to what it seems like the fourth floor and finally reached to her room. Before entering, I look through the window and find she sitting on the bed, while a nurse is trying to feed her. Alex, has her lips sealed in her mouth, avoiding the spoon filled with oatmeal.

She nods and the nurse sighs.



Karen slowly opens the door. "I'll take it from here."

The nurse looks relieved. "Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Thank you." The other nurse walks out and stops once she sees me. Not going to lie, she's pretty cute, but she has to get to stepping.

"Can we go see her?" I asked. She looks down at the flowers and a disappointment crossed her face. "I guess so. Ask nurse Karen Haynes."



"Haynes?" Eli said smiling. "She told you guys to call her that?"

The nurse shrugs. "Yeah. She told everybody to call her that from now on."

Eli chuckles. "That's my girl for you."

I couldn't help but smile, but once I looked at Alex again, it faded away. I kind of wish Alex and I met the way Eli and Karen met. Not through a bet, but through running into each other at a club or; some type of shit that doesn't have to do with a bet. I wouldn't have to go  through this mess.



I slowly walk pass Eli and into the room with the flowers behind my back. Karen and Alex's conversation automatically stopped. They both looks at me and soon Karen walks out of the room.



"So Karen Haynes huh?" I can hear Eli ask her. "You already have them calling you that." I can tell he's joking.

"Where have you been hearing this from." Karen asks, acting like she's doesn't know what he's talking about.

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I turn my focus back to Alex, who was just sitting there, playing with her thumbs. I look at her arm and find a lot of marks on it. Even deep ones. What type of shit was she on.

I pull out the flowers from behind my back and slowly try to hand it to her. I am pretty damn nervous. I'm not prepared for her screaming. "I brought these for you and if you dig deep enough, you'll find something else besides a card." I said, looking at her.

She doesn't speak, nor try to take the flowers out of my hand. So I lay it on her lap. She looks up at me, then at the flowers. She digs through it. She pulls out the card first and reads it then takes out the box that's holding and securing the necklace. Her hands are shaking. She's weak.

Her eyes widen as she opens the box. She stares at it, then back at me. "I...I...I can't take this."

"I don't want it, so you can give it to someone else with the initials A & D." I became upset.



"I can't do that." She says. Whoo, that felt good for me to hear. "But I know this wasn't worth $500, since I'm worth that much."

"Awhh shit." Eli says from the door. He said the same thing I was thinking. Here it goes. When she said that, my heart  starts to sink. I never expected to hear this from her. Though, she has every right.



"Eli mind your business." Karen pulls him away and shuts the door. Thank you.



"Look Alex. I was stupid for taking the bet. You're worth way more than that. "



She nods. "No you're right. I am worth that much. Heck, even less." She says trying to fight back tears.



"Look Alex, I've made a mistake, but when you really think about it." I hold on to her hand, but she pulls away in pain. I totally forgot that she did that cutting shit to her skin. "that if it wasn't for the bet, we would have never met." I state. It's true. When you really think about it, her and I would have never knew each other if it wasn't for the bet. Don't get me wrong, the bet was totally wrong.



"I can't look at you the same anymore." She speaks. "I loved you. Everything was real to me. The dates, the kissing, the hugging and the time we made love, but it was all fake to you."



"The beginning it was, but as we progressed, my feelings for you became strong. I love you Alex. With all my heart. You're my first everything. My first love, person I made love to and person to be carrying my child." I finally let the last one out.  I went there. I'm not just going to stand here and let this subject pass by.



She looks up at me, her eyes widen. "Yeah. I found that and the horrible letter your mom sent you right under your pillow. When were you planning on telling me?" I aske. " and why would your mom write those things to you?" We have to talk about the pregnancy, the letter, the note in my pocket. I can't allow her to go into an institute. I refuse, and I'll be there with her through every step of the way.



She looks back down. "Because I'm a disgrace." I know she wants to cry. Heck, I probably would've cried too if my mom wrote that shit to me, considering I'm kind of a momma's boy.



"No you're not." -

"It is. She told nobody would love me, and I didn't believe her because I thought you loved me, but I was completely wrong." Tears starts falling.



Man, I felt like crying. Damn her for making me fall in love with her. Fuck, If I was still to Mr. Carter, instead of Damien Carter, I would've been probably fucking a girl right now. Not caring about her after I fucked her. Got me spending thousands of dollars on a damn necklace and nice dinners. "No you weren't. I do love you Alex. With all my heart." I hold her hand and bring it to my chest.



She looks up at me with tears falling. I take my thumbs and wipe them away. "I don't know what to do." Alex speaks. "I want to have an abortion."



Now, she's lucky we're in a public area and that she's not in good condition right now, because if she wasn't, I would've yelled at her ass for being so damn.... I can't think of the word right now, but once it comes to mind I'll say it.

Fuck she talking about she wants to have an abortion? With my child.





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Author's Note:

Ok, sad huh? Alex trying to kill herself and the baby. Don't throw shade at her though. She's going through a lot of stuff. You can't blame her. She's been strong for too long.



Damien is willing to take care of his child? Hmm(= He is willing to take classes on learning how be a father. I don't know if those actually exist.

Is Damien being selfish or is Alex being selfish?



BTW:

I'm planning on turning these into a series AFTER this book.

I want you guys to choose if you want it to me to write it on

1) ELI AND KAREN

2) DAMIEN'S SISTER JESSICA AND SOME GUY.

OR 3) ONE OF DAMIEN'S TEAMMATES.

The winner will be told probably on the next chapter and I'll be doing auditions.

Tell me what you think about this chapter. Was it boring?



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