The truth about love

Our adventure

   I couldn't tell if we had been driving for hours or minutes. Either way I was loving it, we had a green day album playing full volume and his gorgeous smile hadn't left his face since we left my house. We had bonded over green day a few days ago when he complimented my 'dookie' shirt and we had a whole conversation about it. Every time that I asked Grayson where we were going he'd just put his finger over my mouth to shush me. We talked about a few things on the way there, but for the most part we just loudly 'sang' to the music. After about an hour of driving we stopped. I couldn't see where we were, due to the fact that it was pitch black outside, but Grayson came around to my passenger side to help me out of his black pick-up truck. He led me to the back of his truck where he sat down and pointed to the sky..it was beautiful. You could see the stars so well. I went and sat next to him and gazed up at the beautiful view. Of course every few minutes I would glance over at the even better view next to me. I was so overwhelmed with all of the beauty surrounding me. After a few minutes I felt eyes on me and looked over to see Grayson smiling at me.

"do you like it?" he smiled even brighter 

"to say that I like it would be an understatement!" 

"I knew you'd appreciate it" I didn't have to look at him to know he was smiling

   No one said anything for  a while. It was so peaceful, I wouldn't give up this moment for anything.

"has anyone ever tried to stop you?", he paused, "ya know, from drinking"

It took me a second to think about...has anyone ever even really known?

"actually, I don't believe anyone has ever really known about it but you and Luke, so no. I guess not."

"You've never told anyone else? No one's accidentally found out?!" he seemed shocked

"well, I've never really been close with anybody. No ones ever known my secrets, I'm just not a very likable person I guess"

He laughed at this. 

"You're an extremely likable person, and get ready for all of that to change. For as long as I am able to I will try my hardest to get you to be safe and healthy. I want you to be as happy as possible." 

I had no clue what to say. There were at least a million butterflies in my stomach. I wasn't used to people being nice to me. Just as I was about to work up the courage to say something I felt Grayson's fingers slowly intertwine with mine, and I lost my voice again. I was scared, I was so in love with this boy, and now there was the possibility of him liking me back. That was fucking terrifying to me.

   BEEP BEEP BEEP I usually wake up before my alarm, but today that was not the case. I didn't get home till about 3, I had an amazing time with Grayson. Holy shit though, that boy does not get tired. I started to get up so I could go see the sunrise when I got a text

Grayson: Hey, you're up right?

  I had mentioned earlier to him that I wake up to see the sunrise every morning, but I didn't think he was really paying attention. 

Me: yeah, why?

Grayson: go outside

   I walked out to see his car parked out front, with him leaning next to it.

"I could't miss the opportunity to watch the sunrise with you" he smiled

   I just ran up to him and grabbed his hand, pulling it to where I usually watch the sunrise from. I was so fucking happy to get to start off my day with him. Just like last night we sat in silence for a while. I had my camera and was too busy taking pictures to even acknowledge anything around me. After it was done Grayson and I went back into my house. We were in my room and he was looking around, when he find his way to a pile of old birthday cards

"wait, your birthday is in 2 days?!" 

"yeah..." I wasn't a fan of birthdays, I've never really had anyone to celebrate mine with.

"well, what are you doing that day?" he asked

"going to school?" duh

"that's it?" 

"I guess.." 

"no you're not. Were gonna ditch, I'm gonna give you a good birthday."

  Grayson stayed for the rest of the morning and drove me to school. When I was getting out of his car, I felt so many eyes on me. Lots of people were whispering about it and at least 5 people throughout the day had asked me if we were "a thing". Normally this kind of attention would bother me, but I didn't mind. As long as I got to spend time with him I was okay with whatever. After school Grayson offered to drive me home, but I said no. I felt as if I was taking over his time and I didn't want to be a bother...but I did appreciate how much time he wanted to spend with me. However I just wanted some alone time so after school I walked to this big desert area near my house. I took my camera and left my phone at home. I didn't get home till around 10, and I checked my phone as soon as I got home.

Grayson: hey

Grayson: you okay? 

Grayson: you better not be drinking...

Grayson: pleaseee don't drink

Grayson:you're worth so much more than a bottle 

   I was shocked. He really cares. I went to the mini fridge in my room and took out the two bottles of alcohol. One was half full and the other hadn't been touched since Grayson had brought it over the other day, I threw them both away. I don't need this, I have him. Him. The guy who I've always been in love with, they guy who cares about me. Him.