Swagger Chapter Two Part 5
Could you believe this hoe she was up in my face rambling on and on about how I need to leave her man alone and if I thought I could take Tremaine back I was too full of myself. She was flossing her ring in my face I just stood there not giving her the time of day.
"I'm talking to you" Taryn grabbed my hand I looked down at it.
"Let me the fuck go" I told her but she came up in my face.
"You swear Tashell you all that but let me tell you something Tremaine will never leave this get that through your head you're a child I'm a woman. He doesn't want -
"First of all get your hands the fuck off me. And if you were such a woman you wouldn't even be all up in my face like some damn teenage little girl who doesn't know any better. And have you ever stop to think I did not want your man? I had Tremaine he isn't nothing worth killing myself over. As I recall you O so STOLE him from me now that you have be satisfied. I don't need him I got me a man that's more than willing and able to be at my beck and call. You should be having this conversation with him and not me. Taryn don't flatter yourself pussy don't keep nigga's boo. Maybe you're shit so stretched out from letting him bang it too much why he's chasing other people kitty kat. So excuse me I have a FAITHFUL man to go tend to".
She batted her fake eyelashes at me "I'm warning you Tashell stay the fuck away from him" I rolled my eyes and walked off. I didn't have time for silly hoes. Tremaine was nothing for me to try to steal.
"Come on baby lets go take a walk" Terrence held out his hand for me. I smiled at him and grabbed my jacket.
"Where do you see yourself in a couple of years?" I looked up at Terrence as we crossed the street.
"What do you mean?" I asked him I knew what the question meant but I wanted to know the underlying reason of him asking this.
"Just like where do you see your life going the direction the people you know"
"Oh I haven't really thought about it" I told him I didn't want to go and give him a wrong answer something he wasn't expecting cause God knows we had a few more days in this piece and I wanted him not to get mad at me for some bullshit. And then him and I having a rift in our relationship that wasn't the look I was going for.
"Well I was thinking about it last night and I see myself in the NFL playing star quarterback. I see myself coming home and when I get there you'll be there waiting for me with open arms. We'll have 3 kids 2 boys and a girl. I really put some thought in it and baby even though we've been together for two months I can't explain the feeling but you got me. I tried to tell myself that this shit is just another but Tashell I don't know its like you have me on a leash or some shit .It ain't love yet but its getting there. I don't want to hurt you. I don't want you to need or want anything. I can't se myself without".
I stopped and he stopped "what?"
"You really feel this way?" I asked him looking up at him. He shook his head.
"I don't even think I tell how beautiful you are enough. I'll never hurt you" He told me pulling me closer to him. While he hugged me all I thought about was what if I couldn't see myself with him? What if I hurt him? Terrence didn't deserve me.
"You got me" he told me as we continued walking. I changed the subject quickly I wanted to be with him but nope I couldn't do this shit to him if I knew I wasn't going to be there for a while then I should just bounce. It was better that I left him instead of him falling in love with me and I hurt him. I couldn't love Terrence the way he would want me to love him because the truth of it all I didn't know how to love someone with them returning it.
