harry pov
i parked my car and took the key out of the ignition. i kept my head in my hands as fresh tears ran down my face. i was so stupid. how couldve i not notice? my best friend, my boyfriend, my love, was depressed under our noses. i shouldve noticed! his parents never cared for him and others would ignore him. i was the one he let in and promised i would never hurt him. i was the only one that loved him. and in the end i was the one that hurt him most.
how did i get fooled with those faked and forced smiles? i screamed out in pain. i started bawling ignoring all the weird looks i got from people. i heard a small ding coming from my phone as i sobbed. i picked it up and my world froze as i read the paragraph over and over again. i dropped the device and raced to his house. i didnt care if police were chasing me, all i cared was niall. niall stayed in my mind throughout the 10 minute journey.
i got out of the car not caring if i left it on and barged in the door. there i saw the most horrific scene ive ever seen. worse than anything. my heart shattered. niall laid ther motionless with a butchers knife in his abdomen. i didnt hesitate when my feet ran up to the small irish boy. i carried him bridal style to my car ignoring the crowd of people who had appeared wondering what had happened.
liam, louis and zayn pushed through the crowd ignoring the protests of elders. when they saw niall their faces drained of colour. "help me get out of the driveway so i can drive him to the hospital!" i cried. liam ended up driving us there seeing i was too much of a mess to drive. nialls pale face laid in my lap as i stroked his hair whispering 'itll all be over soon' and 'youll make it just hold on a little longer' hoping itll not only help him but also convince myself.
we finally arrived after what felt like forever. i burst through the doors of the hospital calling out for help. nurses and doctors came and put niall on a stretcher. i was told to wait in the waiting room. i just paced back and forth until i finally gave up and sat down with my head in my hands. i kept on mumbling how sorry i was and that this wouldnt happen if i hadnt left him. louis, liam and zayn came through the doors not long after.
they ran towards me and sat down on the chairs next to me. "hey mate, when we were in the house cleaning up the mess we found this note." zayn took the note out from his pocket and handed it to me.
to whoever finds me,
tell everyone i love them, even my parents. i really was a burden wasnt i? im sorry i always ended up alive. i didnt mean to hurt anyone. now i wont ever do that again seeing as this is the last time youll hear from me- actually read- just tell everyone that i will be watching over them, tell harry i never stopped loving him and that the cuts on my thighs,stomach and wrists were all the times i tried to get back to him. tell my parents and greg that i never meant to be a mistake, i never meant to get in the way of greg. finally, tell liam,louis and zayn that i tried my hardest to be happy around them when all i ever wanted was to crawl to a corner and cry my eyes out.
thank you for your time,
niall horan
soon the paper got damp with my tears. he never stopped loving me while i started dating liam again.
4 hours later and we still have no news on how nialls going. my hairs all messy from running my fingers in it too much. finally after an eternity, a nurse came. "niall horan?" the nurse called. i stood up as soon i heard his first name. "follow me," she ordered. "he isnt in the best condition right now and probably wont be for the next few days." the nurse almost opened the door when liam intervened.
"s-so y-you mean hes in a-a co-coma?" liam asked with a shaky breath. i closed my eyes praying she didnt say yes. i didnt hear anything eles and slowly opened my eyes. she gave us a sympathetic smile. more tears streamed down my face. stop it harry! you have to be strong for niall! the nurse opened the door and niall laid there pale, tubes covered his upper half. sadly that wasnt the worse part, he had a breathing tube on. I immediately rushed to the seat closest to him. i took his hand in mine, kissing his cold knuckles. "youre lucky you brought him in when you did, if you did any longer he couldve died." the nurse then left us alone.
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so theres ya chapter! this is just a filler and the next chapter might be one too.
i just wanted you guys to see it in harrys perspective and in the next chapter i promise ill do it in third person!
all the love,
jess xx
