Just A Fan

Being Sick Sucks

I got my plate with a pancake on it. That's it... I had such a bad night. What if Cameron wasn't there? Or Ethan to make me feel better? What if the man won... And dragged me to his place and beat me?
I kept asking myself these what if questions. I don't know why. I havnt felt this way for months...
I was feeling nauseous so I didn't eat much of my pancake and just laid in bed for a while. Was my anorexia coming back? What about my depression? Self harm? I have scars almost all over my body... Because of my childhood I have always felt ugly, fat, worthless... I don't know why I let those kids get to me so easily.
I'm bout to throw up... So I run to the bathroom and vomit in the toilet then wash my mouth out as my mom runs in.
"Are you ok sweetie?" She asks.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Just sick to my stomach." I say.
"Well, let's get you to bed maybe dinner didn't settle right." She replied while leading me back to my room then covering me up with two blankets and getting my some warm tea.
I love warm tea. Especially when I'm sick, I don't know why.
I decided to look on Twitter and Instagram and face book and all my other social medias. I kept seeing tweets from Ethan saying that he met a girl at the mall in New York... He said that all he could see was her eyes and smile even though they met while she was going through a hard struggle.
Was it me? It was another girl there like one of my friends or something? I put my laptop up and got my phone off the charger and layer it on the floor while laying on my stomach with my arm down my bed and scrolling through social media. I got a text from a number I didn't know that read:
'Hey, I know this is really creepy but this is Ethan... Dolan... Brother and twin of Grayson... Dolan. Haha one of your friends gave me your number so I could talk to you. Is it ok if I call you?'
'Sure...?' I replied.
Not even a minute later I got a call from that same number and hesitated before answering. It was Ethan's voice.
"Hey beautiful." He said "I was hoping that you could give me your address so I could pick you up and maybe go out to eat and to see a movie? I would much rather pick you up because I don't want a beautiful girl like you out here in New York by yourself after what happened."
I blushed. "Is this really Ethan?" Yeah I know stupid question.
"Don't worry beautiful, it is me Ethan Dolan." He chuckled. "I'm not like that man."
I smiled with the brightest smile ever then frowned. "I would love to let you pick me up and take my out but... I'm..." I started feeling nauseous again and ran to the bathroom continuing the routine then walked back to my phone and put it on speaker.
I set it on my bed and laid on my stomach after taking a sip of my warm tea.
"I'm a little sick today." I said
"Can I still come over? Are you home alone? Is anybody there to protect you and help you?"
"Yeah my mom."
Just then my mom walked in and asked who I was talking to.
"I'm just talking to Ethan Dolan. He helped me with what happened last night at the mall."
"Isn't he that viner and youtuber that you watch?"
I giggled. "Yeah"
She smiled and said hi to him.
"Well I have to go to a meeting because my boss didn't tell me about this meeting today so I'm late. I'm sorry Hun I would love to stay here and help you but I gotta go." She said as she kissed my fore head.
"It's ok mom. I'll be fine. Good luck. Love you."
"Love you too sweetheart." She said before she left.
"Well guess now I have no one."
"Where do you live? I'll come right over."
I hesitated then told him my address a little scared. What if this wa- oh no the what if questions again.
We hung up and an hour later I hear a knock on the front door and I slowly and weakly walked to the door and slowly opened it seeing it was Ethan.