My Thoughts In High School

To all who I have and will meet!

Dear You,

Yes, even you who are reading this. (I have good grammar skills, I swear! Jk) Thank you for being in my life; whether or not you are just reading this because I'm interesting or a complete fool, thank you! You all have affected my life for the better, even those who may have hurt me in some way. Thank you! You have allowed me to go on this exciting adventure of my life, ups and downs, tears and laughs, serious and silly, love and hatred. Thank you ALL! I realized tonight that my life is being affected by people I don't even know yet, and now, because of all you inspirational people out there, whether you write something amazing or just shared it, I want to live my life in MY direction. I am religious; yes, I do believe in God, etc. I may seem crazy, but it's totally worth it; now, looking back on my past, I'm so glad I was a jerk, a nerd, an idiot, a heartless person, a full-hearted person, smart, dumb, etc. because now I have all these memories. I want to share some, actually, to possibly inspire someone out there to have experiences that are awesome or as stupid as mine! 

T and K: I had these best friends named K and T when I was younger. They were awesome, and I couldn't have picked better childhood best friends! We were all very creative and had WILD imaginations! We played made-up games almost every day at recess in grade school. We had arguments, and we fought, we cried, we laughed, we trusted each other, we broke that trust, we didn't deserve that trust, we earned it back, then we all went out separate ways. Thank you, you two, for being amazing, awesome, and plain out being part of my past and possibly my future. 

Flower: Flower was my first cat. I named him flower because the first thing I saw was a flower after looking up from him in my arms. He was a good cat, but when I got MY first dog, Zero, he wanted to be the boss. One day he scratched me badly then ran away for a day. He came back, but after a couple of days, a massive snowstorm came suddenly, and he was lost. I believe I saw him a couple of months afterward, but he was running away from me, and he was scrawnier than crap. I never saw him again. I relate that to my life in the sense that I have been very leader role demanding. I have been turned away, and I have wanted not to come back. But, I came back differently than Flower has. I came back as a lesson and continued living within those that care. 

C: C is one of my preteen/teenage friends. After my childhood friends and I went our separate ways, C was one of my first friends. Thank you! My life would have been much easier without friends, I do admit, but it would have been boring and useless too. C taught me life lessons without even realizing it, and she is one of my own personal heroes. She has gone through so much that others have done to her, and she's been alone with no one to comfort her truly, but she's made it through. She blames herself, for goodness sake, for a lot of things that are not even close to her fault. Sure, she has been rude, a jerk, etc., but she's been one of the kindest people I've ever met. (And I've been worse to her soo...) No offense, she is not very good with words, but that doesn't matter, because she's there! She needs a much better friend than me, so I'm sorry if I have been a bit weird, 'cause I'm trying to change for my friends. I love you, C! Thank you, thank you!

P: Well, there's not much to say, is there, you loser! I can't put this in words very well, so I'll just say this. Try to imagine the kindest, understanding, happiest, random, deserves better, the person you can imagine, then times it by ten. P's always been there for me, no matter what. I've been a complete jerk and more, and she still thinks I'm worth going through heck for. I don't know where I'd be without any of my friends, but without P, I'd be dead. I love you, P, thanks, and you freakin jerk, you're making me cry!

Sorry, I'm too teared up right now to write very much more if you liked my experiences and stuff, comment for more! I don't want to waste your guy's time sooooo... Thank you all!