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FYE 8: Day 7 - The Truth

Sunday.

I regretted going to the hospital, but at the same time I was so damned thankful I did. 

Masakit ang ulo ko kahit nasa office pa ako. Uminom na ako ng gamot pero hindi mawala ang sakit ng ulo ko, siguro dahil na din sa stress at pagod. Nitong mga nakaraang araw, kahit kasama ko si Warren, ginagawa ko pa din ang dapat kong gawin for the company. 

Jejean told me na magpa check up daw ako, and she insisted on driving but I decline. Baka mahirapan pa siya kasi madami ding nakatambak na trabaho sa kanya. I know it's Sunday at dapat wala nang work pero may mga dapat talaga akong gawin. 

It was just 3 in the afternoon. Masakit pa din ang ulo ko. May private doctor ako dito sa hospital na ito, family nina Gab ang may ari ng hospital that's why.

After kong makausap si Dr. Perez, niresultahan niya ako ng mga gamot and rest as long as I want. Pauwi na ako noon..

I wished I hadn't looked.

I wished I hadn't heard. 

I wished I could go back in time and change everything.

Nakita ko si Gab with Pauline. Una, I thought that Pauline might be pregnant. It hurts but I need to accept it, so what right? Pero nagulat ako nang makita kong nandun din si Warren. He looks--confused and afraid and worried at the same time. Lalapit na sana ako sa kanya when I heard them talking, sumandal ako sa isang wall na malapit sa kanila. 

"You're selfish! So DAMNED SELFISH!" narinig kong sigaw ni Gab.. at napansin kong si Warren ang sinisigawan niya. 

"I..I.. I just love her... so much Gab, alam mong matagal ko na siyang mahal, ngayon na lang ulit ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataon para maipakita sa kanya kung gaano ko siya kamahal" Warren said in a low tone. Parang naiiyak na siya.

Lumapit si Pauline kay Warren, then she patted him in the shoulder.

"You don't have to do this Warren, you can be free... you can--" Pauline's voice trailed off. 

"No Pau, I'm still going to do it" Warred said firmly. Like no one's going to change his decision.. whaterver it is.

"How about Empress? how about her Warren? Will you fucking leave her now?" Parang may sumaksak sa puso ko nung oras na yon. "Leave?" Iiwanan ako ni Warren? Bakit? Pagkatapos niyang sabihing mahal niya ako? Pagkatapos kong maramdaman na masaya ako kasama siya?

"Please Gab.. get her back.. mahal mo pa siya di ba? Kunin mo ulit siya... please. don't make her cry again" Tinakpan ko ang bibig ko gamit ang aking kamay. My tears were falling at hindi ko alam kung bakit. Siguro dahil nakikita kong lumuhod si Warren kay Gab, or siguro nakikita ko na umiiyak ngayon si Warren.

It was the first time I've seen him cry. At nasasaktan ako.

Isang malakas na suntok ang binigay ni Gab kay Warren. Napansin ko na kahit si Pauline ay umiiyak na.

"Fuck you! You are fucking selfish Warren! You told me you wanted Empress to love you back? Hindi yun ang pinag usapan natin! Our deal is you'll be loving her secretly! And you fucking think that I'll  get her back?!You moron! " sigaw ni Gab. This is also the first time I've seen him that angry. Lumapit si Pauline and then she held Gab's arms like she's telling him to stop. Then Gab stopped.

"Warren.. you can... I mean, stop this.. mag back out ka, I can accept it" mahinahong sinabi ni Pauline kay Warren. Hindi ko maintindihan kung ano yun pero kinakabahan ako.