~The Door To The Keys~

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The social environment from which any individual grows has a lasting impact upon their formative development into the rest of their lives. My name is Kenneth Errol Jamison Jr. and growing up on the grounds of a mental institution has shaped who I am today to a large degree. In my style I am ever describing the grounds of Broughton Hospital, conveying what it was like living in close proximity to an otherworldly environment. I was born in Durham, NC. Since I was se7en I was raised in Morganton, NC, where I lived on the grounds for over two decades. My mother was a trained nurse anesthetist who found employment with the state of NC, in the Operating Room at Broughton Hospital in 1977. My father stayed in Durham and is now retired. My sister and I lived with my mother between Asheville, NC (Where my mother was born) and Morganton, in the mountains and foothills of the Appalachian Trail, from the time I was se7en years old...((O,o~

The things I remember most about my childhood are many situations revolving around growing up on the grounds of Broughton Hospital, a State Hospital for the Mentally Handicapped and Insane in Morganton, NC. Broughton Hospital was first opened in 1883, erected utilizing the Kirkbride architectural plan.~o,0))

Oh yeah. And I was born with and have lived with Synesthesia through it all. Don't know what Synesthesia is? That's OK. Neither did I until I stumbled across the term when I was 31. Look it up. It's VERY interesting stuff and(subliminal)REQUIRED READING ~O.0))...

In laymans terms, I'm autistic. Or maybe it's schizophrenia. I know it's not a delusion or I wouldn't be able to describe it at all and it's definately not catatonic or I wouldn't even be talking about it.

It's definitely a mania and not a depression and it's truly OCD because it dreams obssessively, non-stop, all the time...

I got a Djinni in me is how I S33!

C0M3 DR34M W1TH M3?

Sincerely,((O,0~

KennJamisonJr.

~O,o))

I've lived a third of my life backwards. You see, I'm a real life time traveler. As a writer, meta-journalist, social media Shåmån and literary artist, my pen is the sword of my iPhone 6's keyboard, my mind is the ship of my destiny upon which I sail through the waves of time across the oceans of my soul...

Ever to the place where my spirit resides, way, away...

Within the State of •iS•...

•[[A quick note on my brand of Time Travel: As far as I'm concerned, Time as a sociological construct is not always what education teaches it to be. Time is not always linear because Time is not exactly a 'thing' or an 'object' of any sort but, better categorized, Time is a Perception, a mental means of accessing sensory information, a way to see independent of the sense of sight. Time is a 6th Sense, and I have mastered My own perception of It, hence, How I can, do and Am a traveller across time unseen...]]•

Understand, there have always been 3 of Me and I have been aware of this fact since I was stillborn with synesthesia 47+ years gone now. Me, My•Self & I, to be exact. See what I did there; With the first Me and I, then including My•Self between them in the next sentence? A little exercise I like to call "Subliminal Suggestion", designed to plant the familiarization of a new concept between already established literal references, I.e.: Me and I around the novel concept of My•Self as opposed to the commonly utilized syntax of myself...

When I was a kid, My perception of My•S3lf as a whole consisted of three distinct archetypical facets: Little Kitt (M3 [Spirit]), Middle Kitt (My•S3lf [Mind]), & Big Kitt (•I•[Soul]). {Refer To: "3113:111. Every One Is 1 In 3"} Since way before such concepts as family and community, Us, Them, or Other than my S3lf were ever introduced into My personal stream of consciousness, I'd already developed a communion with the 3 of M3. Throughout the entirety of my existence this time around the existential wheel commonly referred to as 'Life', I have always known my S3lf three times better than any others individual perspective...

Of the 3 of M3...

•Kitt•{M3}

First iS little Kitt, the aspect of my Self reference as M3. Little Kitt is the Spirit of M3, the biblical "little child that shall lead", so to speak; and the older I get as 3 in One, the further from the future little Kitt becomes. Perceptually speaking, the kid in M3 perpetually lives towards the year 3113. Hover board competitions, holographic danger games and daring the hard streets beneath futuristic Surface City and beyond are pretty much all Kitt spends most of his awareness on these days. I rarely hear from him unless I'm around kids his age out in the real world. In the presence of adolescence, I clearly see Kitt communicating through M3 in the mannerisms, gestures and social interactions of most children, preteens and teenagers I come across regularly in 'Real Life'...

•Nimbus•Shade•{•I•}

Next iS Big Kitt. Big Kitt is the aspect of my Self reference as I. Big Kitt is the Soul of M3, the protecter, the champion, the part of me quickest to confront bullies and defend against tyrannical behavior from others. As a consequence, Big Kitt, as big as he is, gets the shit kicked out of M3 if his sense of justice and fairness in all things isn't tightly managed and controlled accordingly. Like little Kitt (M3), I [Big Kitt] Am also a native of the future tense, perceptually coming from the year 3113. In My youth, Big Kitt iS the aspect of My S3lf into which I project much of my internal anger, childhood rage, social frustrations and educated hatred. Psychological pain and mental misery are his bread and butter because (as a superhero) Big Kitt is a glutton for psychological punishment, an emotional masochist and a spiritual warrior. In the future, Big Kitt has matured into an extremely powerful and volatile holographic super human code named Nimbushade (pronounced: 'Nimbus Shade'). Nimbus has to be constantly monitored and controlled. His excessive love of confrontation and conflict is counterbalanced by an apparent invulnerability to emotional and psychological stress. Spiritually speaking, as a superhero, Nimbushade can "take a lickin' and keep on tickin'"!

•Dr.Sh4d3m4ch1n3•{My•Self}

Then there's Middle Kitt. Middle Kitt is the aspect of Me and I in reference to My•Self. Middle Kitt is the Mind of M3, the thinker, the schemer, the part of me that's always planning, plotting and questioning everything. Middle Kitt (My•Self) is the past oriented perspective, coming from the Year 3113. Throughout my childhood, My•Self has ever plotted the Self destruction of M3 & I. The Dr. is forever escaping from the year 3113, spreading his dark influence and conspiring to manipulate, modify and transform. In the future, the D0ct0r is My shadowy shape shifter, a multiplayer of Holographic Society, a cybernetic 'straw man' digitally inclined to dominate the World. Of the 3 of M3, Dr.Sh4d3m4ch1n3 is the most inhuman, Self serving and coldly calculating. The Dr. does not Love. The Dr. Hates. The Dr. doesn't Care. The Dr. Studies. The Dr. does not experience. The Dr. experiments. Coming from the future of 3113, the Doctor iS always trying to get back there. Like he hates everything else, Dr.Sh4d3m4ch1n3 hates the past more than anything. To the Dr, the past is full of the mistakes of others (blame), misspent intent (fault) and the ineptitude of those who would dare to counter his constant manipulations and schemings (which is pretty much everyone who is not the Doctor). Because the Doctor is the essence of My•Self, his control freakishness must constantly be countered by the cooperative efforts of M3 {Kitt} & •I• {Nimbus}. The Doctor is forever at war with himself, obsessed with self improvement (as he experiments upon Nimbus like Victor Von Frankenstein does his 'Monster') and being something, anything that he is not (hence why he is always chasing after Kitt {M3} with the intent of killing his own child aspect in favor of "Growing Up" to better fit social standards to which the Dr and only he can ever conform to let alone comprehend.

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