A Girl's Perfect Love Story

A Girl's Perfect Love Story - part 5

Chapter 5

Few months passed, we were still together despite the distance, but it wasn't the same. We had a chat once in a while on Facebook (he didn't have a phone back then either) and that was about it. I don't know what got into me, but, i guess i just forgot about all the fun i had with him, maybe i forgot how much i liked him and how much he liked me, maybe i thought he wasn't cooperating, i just dont know. But i decided to break up with him. I told my friend about it (the same friend i told about my "crush" in the beginning) and then she ended up helping me on what i should tell him, so that i don't break his heart completely, if i did. He came online on Facebook on the same time he always did and i told him. He did get sad and he kept telling me "Sorry" and that he needed another chance. I didn't know how to finish it off now. I needed a little break atleast if not a permanent one. So i kept updating my friend on what he was telling me, and she helped me gather a few sentences that weren't as harsh. I finally broke up, and i was a bit relieved; relieved for not having to worry anymore about getting caught by parents, who didn't know anything about my relationship or ANYTHING, relieved for no more drama, relieved that i wouldn't have any secrets to deal with. I though i was over him, infact i was 100% sure that i was. The day went off good, like a normal, casual day, and the other days went away like that too...i had nothing to worry about

After few months, he tried messaging me again, i told him that i still didn't feel like i wanna get back together and that was that.

 - After few months -

It was now summer vacations and me and my friends had planned a small get together with few friends and him. We were still talking to eachother like normal friends do, but it was still a bit awkward for me. I didn't really show that. We all had lots of fun, played games and other stuff. He started poking and irritating me. i didn't mind. Infact i started to like it. i hit him back and poked him too. After the long fun, but tiring day we finally said goodbye to eachother, but i stayed back with my two of my "girlfriends" for the night...we had fun, surfing on the net, watching hilarious videos on YouTube and at around 3 o'clock we turned off the nights and just chatted a bit for some time. I thought i should tell them about everything. I told them. Everything, but not what i was feeling at that moment. Because i wasn't sure, now i was in a dilemma, 'cause i couldn't decipher my own feelings. It was a moment of confusion so i didn't tell them that i may be missing him.