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Ch.2 Starting up again

~Sorry lovelies, here ya go :3~

*Skylar's pov*

What did I do? Why didn't he just tell me I messed up? I knew my weight was gaining. But I tried, I loved him, I did all I could to care for him and he just....just had to go on and-

"SLAM!"

Im pretty damn sure that was my flat door shutting. If it's a murderer...i could care less because nothing is worse than what I'm feeling right now.

"SKYLAR! DARLING! IT'S BEEN AGES! whoa. You look terrible!"

My best friend Daniella barged.

"I know." I scoffed more to myself.

"Aw bebe! Get in the shower right now!We have places to be!"

"Not today Dani."

I said pulling the duvet over my head.

But before the duvet was able to fully set over my tangled hair, Dani ripped the blanket from my freshly cut body, and threw it over to a junk of wrappers in the corner as I scurried into a ball hoping she would leave.

she ran to my closet rummaging through my items and soon pulled out a long sleeve shirt yelling,

"GET IN THE DANG SHOWER BEFORE THE SHOWER COMES TO YOU!"

I knew exactly what that meant (3 buckets full of cold water poured on your head) so I got out of the bed at a sloth's pace and shuffled to the washroom. my body is aching and when I looked into the mirror I let out a whimper and noticed the blood stains on my baggy t-shirt I've been wearing for weeks.

I've been self harming for about 2 and a 1/2 years now and each day I get worse. I keep falling into a deeper hole and trying to get out is starting to become hopeless. I started the steamy water of the shower and stripped off my clothes with careful hands not wanting Dani to hear my pain of sobbs. I traced over each scar and each new cut. I'm hideous and im scared of myself.

"no one should love you!"

My self Conscience adds to my painful thoughts.

"No one would ever love a scared girl, you should be like those pretty confident girls!"

"your ugly and you should cut more!"

"No wonder everyone left you!"

I hear these things everyday and Ive cried out all my tears. when I hear my own thoughts I just agree and go sit on self pity. Harming has become a daily routine and it's so easy to grab my blades and shred a little bit across my skin.

I entered the shower and quickly stepped back from the burning water. I'm okay with the pain but I'm not used to this kind yet. I decided to be brave and step into the burning water. Once I got used to the water feel on my back I just sat for a while enjoying the burning sensation I can't help but love.

I finish my shower and stare at my reflection with discuss once more before stepping out of the small room to see dani and I walked slowly towards my dresser of under garments silently praying I would smile today.

*Daniella's pov*

I knew Sky has been down for a while but when I ran into the flat I've known for years, I was a little a taken back by what it has become. A room full of wrappers, a few water bottles, un opened romance movies, things broken, and the feel to the air was sadness. Ive loved skylar like a sister for years and I hate seeing her this way.

*10 minutes earlier*

Before I choose sky's outfit of the day, i started up the hair straightener. I knew she wouldn't want to get all, "fancy date out shopping fancy", so I picked out a simple long sleeved black v-neck, blue skinny jeans, and tan Uggs matching the tan, long chained locket her mother gave her.

While I waited for Skylar I decided to pick up a bit of the place to try and re see the flat's beauty.

*20 minutes later*

*Skylar's pov*

I'm probably the longest shower person ever but i really needed to fresh in up so in 25 minutes, that was pretty good time in my opinion.

When I walked out of the foggy room I gasped. My flat was......a flat again. I could see the floors and my bed was made. I tried to thank my best friend but all that came out was, "I, uh, th, tha, how, why, I, thanks." but I'm pretty sure Dani got the point because she smiled, than gave me a hug. Even though I was soaking wet in a towel. I'm always so grateful for my best friend. I truly love her.

I saw the outfit laid on my, now freshly made bed, happy with her style choice and nothing too out of the ordinary like I usually prefer.

"HURRY UP YOU BUMM! WE HAVE RESERVATIONS!!!" Dani yelled obviously amused she called me a bumm.

"YEAH, YEAH! CALM YOUR TITS IM GOING!"

About 5 minutes later I felt refreshed and actually exited to get a glimpse of the fall afternoon in London while getting to hang and catch up with my best friend.

I walked over to my makeup table somewhat happy with my appearance and swang onto the rolly chair with a hair straightener to my right. Dani did my hair flawlessly and we were out the door within 12 minutes and then started running because to wherever we were going....we were apparently late.