Tell Me A Lie (One Direction Fanfiction)

Why?

Allison's P.O.V

"Why... why would you do this"? Zayn yells. I hang my head as he reads the words i carved to himself.

"None of those things are true Ally you know that". Zayn whispered. But i didn't know that. I didn't believe it at least.

"Zayn you don't need to lie to me". I sigh. I hated being lied to. Zayn suddenly grabs my wrist. I lock my gaze with his. His amber eyes making me melt on the inside. He gently presses his lips to my wrist on top of each cut. I can't help but blush. He was literally the sweetest guy ever. But if i were you i wouldn't get on his bad side.

"D-Do you know why Isabelle's here"? I ask trying to kill the awkward silence.

"I asked a while ago she said she was gonna suprise visit you and instead walked in on this". He mumbles against my wrist.

"Perfect". He mumbles. I look down at him and he's still kissing my wounds.

"Huh"? I ask confused.

"You're perfect". He states simply. Is it possible to blush twice as much?

"Allison why'd you do this"? He ask again. I shift uncomfortablely. Why did i do it?

"Zayn self harming is just something my go to. It's addicting after the first few times and i've been doing it for years. I had given up and tried my best to control my emotions but with all this drama i just couldn't"! I explain a few tears rolling down my cheek. I quickly wipe them away. I hated crying. It showed how weak i was.

"Y-Years"? Zayn ask wide eyed.

"Y-Yes Zayn r-remember how i used to take long in the restroom when i used to live with y'all... well that's why i took so long". I explain. Zayn's eyes look like they're literally gonna pop out of his head.

"Allison what the hell!?! What age were you when you started"!?! He yells. I didn't wanna tell him.

"Hirtteim". I mumble trying to avoid actually telling him.

"Don't mumble"! He orders.

"Iwasthirtteenyearsold". I state real fast.

"I'm not kidding tell me now"! Zayn demanded.

"13". I sigh simply. Zayn gasp and his eyes look really watery.

"Ally... w-wh-why didn't you tell me? Did a-anyone know"? Zayn stutters.

"Lily, and Mackenzie". I admit.

"YOU DIDN'T HAVE THE FUCKIN NERVE TO TELL ME BUT YOU MANAGED TO TELL MY SISTER, AND MY COUSIN"!?! He yells. I hide my face in my hands. I hated being yelled at.

"I COULD'VE HELPED YOU I COULD'VE ENDED YOUR PROBLEM! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME"!?! He screams.

"BECAUSE I KNEW YOU WOULD REACT LIKE THIS"! I yell not liking the look of suprise on Zayn's face.

"Zayn i know it's hard to believe but it used to be much worse! I attempted suicide twice! I was 14 when i first tried but you didn't know because Lily was the one who found me lying in a pool of blood on the bathroom floor and you and your parents were out. I had to beg her not to tell anyone and she finally agreed as long as i tried to stop". I explain. Memories flood into me while i tell him what happened.

"I tried real hard but then-". I stop remembering i couldn't tell him what had happened. He frowns and looks at me confused.

"Then what"? He persist.

"You uh went out with Lisa and she told me some uh things". I mumble just loud enough for him to hear me. Lisa was Zayn's first girlfriend. She was gorgeous, funny, smart, sweet... well not to me. To me she acted as though i was a virus.

"W-What'd she say"? Zayn ask nervously.

"She knew i self harmed because one time when she and her 'crew' were jumping me she noticed my wrist were cut. And one time when you went to go get us a blanket she whispered that i might well as well kill myself because no one would give two shits if i did. I attempted to kill myself again and this time Mackenzie caught me. She took a lot of persuading but she finally agreed she wouldn't tell anyone". I explain. Zayn engulfs me into his arms and i can feel his tears falling.

"I-I am s-so sorry". He sobs. I hug him back.

"Zayn it wasn't your fault". I reassure him.

"I-I brought her i-in-into your life a-and she made your life hell it i-is my f-fau-fault". He stutters in between sobs.

"Zayn shh no it's not". I whisper trying to calm him down. I run my fingers through his hair because i noticed it calmed him.

"I love you". He whispers. Here it comes...

"I love you too". I smile.

Mackenzie's P.O.V

I decide to go over to Louis'. I know this is probably the worst idea ever but i need to know why he kissed me. I wouldn't tell him anything but i actually did feel something in the kiss. Niall had promised to keep Liam occupied while i sort all this drama out with Louis. I knock on his door with all my confidence. He opens the door a few seconds later and all my confidence is lost as his blue eyes look into my brown ones. It amused me that Liam had brown eyes and Louis had blue eyes and they were related. They didn't look much alike but they had a few similarities.

"Mack"? He ask. He was wearing gym shorts... oh did i mention he was shirtless? Lord help me.

"C-Can we talk"? Well there goes my confidence. He nods and steps aside letting me into his flat. I had heard that him, and Liam shared the place.

"What do you wanna talk about"? He ask trying to break the awkward silence but just making it twice as awkward.

"W-Why did y-you do that"? I ask.

"Do what"? He ask smirking. Why the hell was he smirking.

"Kiss me". I answer. He smiles wide.

"If you insist". He grins catching my lips into a passionate kiss. Wait what the hell!?! I didn't tell him to kiss me. Oh. Blonde moment... I pull away.

"You tricked me"! I state.

"Hun you may be a brunette but you got the brain of a blonde". He jokes. I can't help but giggle a bit.

"I uh i have something for you...". He starts.

"Yeah"? I ask curiously.

"Uh yeah it's a bit cheesy but follow me". He orders pulling me into a random room. I see a couple of guitars, and a piano. There's a load of crumbled up papers on the floor.

"Were you trying to write a song"? I ask curiously.

"Yup". He replies simply. I smile. It's sweet that guys can write songs like girls can. I mean it shows they have a sweet way of expressing their emotions.

"What for"? I ask suddenly. He turns around so that i can see his lovely blue eyes.

"For you".