Paper Airplains

The tweets

I sat in the motel room Harry got us because it was getting dark. I was in Twitter and Harry was getting us dinner. I haven't ben on Twitter in a few months or so I was always busy. I read through the tweets I was mentioned in. Most of them were positive but a majority was negative.

'No, You shouldn't marry her. She's too Fat.'

'I can't stand this bitch divorce her!'

'Harry Seriously she's too Fat. Harry. She's all meat'

My eyes waterd. I started to eat more for Harry, did I gain that much pounds? Am I really that fat? I read on.

'@Harry_Styles: Harry, I seriously don't think you need a fat ass like that. Taylor gave you more love. I know you're useing her.'

'@Alyssapooh:Just cut you're not enogh.'

My heart shatterd. I immediately wrote 'I'm done. You succeeded. #Done'I hit post and my phone immediately had Twitter notifications

I took a breath 'Just cut' Kept playing in my mind.

I decided I should, I got up and grabbed Harry's Razor. I sat on the bathroom floor and started.

'Divorce her she's fat' Cut. 'He's using her' Cut. 'You're not enough' Cut. Cut.Cut. 'She's fat.' Cut. 'You're to fat' cut. I put the razor down and watched as blood rised to the surface of the cuts. It hurts. A lot. this was a mistake, But some how.. it makes me feel less stressed. I put toilet paper over it to stop the bleeding. That's when Harry came home.

"Baby I'm home!"He called.

"I'll be out in a minute. "I called to him. I pulled my sleeve down over the cuts and took a Breath before walking out.

He was in the room and he saw me. He Grabbed my wrist and I bit back a wince. "I got you some food,"He said

My face fell when he mentioned food "I'm not hungery. "I say

"W.What Babe please don't tell me..." He started.

"I'm just not hungery. "I say biting back tears. 'I'm too fat'

"Just take some fries?"He asked

I really waned to.. but I'm not enough. "No. Harry I'm fine," I say.

"Baby.."He started.

"Please.,, Harry. I'm fine."I say.

"Ugh., Fine."He said.

I kissed him and he finally let my wrist go. I sighed and walked to our bed. I grabbed my phone and went on Twitter 'Don't read anything! 'I thought to myself.

But it's too late. I went to my mentions. and read through every tweet. When I read kaitlins tweet igot a call from her I too in a breath "Hey."I say answering the phone

"What the hell do you mean? "She asked

"Nothing. Don't worry about it,"I say too quickly

"Aly we have been bestfriends since the 5th grade."She said "Tell me."She begged.

"Erm. Fine." I looked at Harry who was looking through Twitter. Great.

"Well talk!"She said.

I sighed and went into the bathroom shutting the door behind me. "Kaitlin. I was reading through twitter... and... Hate.., but it's more then usual and it hurt. I'm too fat..., Kaitlin.... I started to cut."I said.

"You.. what?"She asked her voice cracking.

"Cuttig."I say

"Oh my fucking god."She said I heard her sob. "You need to tell him."She said

At that moment I heard Harry yell "Alyssa?"I sighed "Fuck I think he knows. I'll ntalk to you later."I say.

"Okay bye."She said

I hung up and looked in the mirror. I can see my flaws, all of them. Ew. I walked out of the door and saw Harry looking at me upset "What do you mean? "He asked referring to my tweet.

"N-Nothing. "I say crossing my arms across my chest.

"I know damn well it isn't nothing. ."Harry yelled.

"Don't yell."I said softly my eyes watering again.

His face fell and he walked up to me. He pulled me by the wrist to him. I couldn't hold back the wince. He noticed it and he Pulled back. "Did I hurt you?"He asked

I bit my lip and shook my head tucking my wrist to my chest again..

He sighed and nodded. "I got you something. "He said going to a bag on the bed, He pulled out a purple dress and came over to me. "Really want to see you in this."He said.

I looked at it and sighed softly. "I'll try it on."I say. I went into the bathroom and changed. It hand no sleeves .Great. I looked down at my wrist Damn it.