Maybe

Chapter Three

"Dom? You okay?" I run a hand through my hair as I turn around, my shirt still unbuttoned. Spencer's standing there with Amber.

"I... Can't breath...." They realize I'm having a panic attack and sit me on the ground. Spencer holds me close to him, saying things that calm me down. When my breathing goes back to normal and I stop sweating so much, I stand up, dusting myself off. Amber tells Spencer to go set up the tent with Ashtyn, saying we'll be over in a minute. She starts buttoning my shirt.

"That was about Ashtyn, wasn't it?" She says it as a statement. I run a hand through my hair as she finishes doing up my shirt.

"How'd you know?" She chuckles, grabbing my shoulders.

"Everyone but her suspects that you're into her. And plus, Spencer told me that you were cuddling with her in your sleep, which is like super adorable . Its obvious you like her. So why'd you have a panic attack about it?"

"Religious family." I run a hand through my hair, sighing. "I just, I don't know what to do. If I admit my feelings for her, I could get kicked out. But if I don't, then its gonna kill me from the inside." She pulls me into a hug.

"I don't know what you're gonna do. But if you need help, you can talk to any of us about it. Except maybe Grace. She's a bitch." I laugh, wiping a tear away.

"I don't know. Maybe it'll go away." She holds my shoulders, staring straight into my eyes with her fiery brown ones.

"You know it won't. You'll figure it out." She gives me a reassuring smile and turns around, walking towards the tent, which is already halfway set up. I run a hand through my hair, which is now wavy again, before following her. The others are all talking about some teacher, I think, while I'm staying silent, thinking about what I'm gonna do. This continues to the point when we're putting blankets on our air mattresses, which is when Ashtyn turns to me, as its just us now.

"What's wrong? You haven't said anything to me since we left Daniel's. Did I do something?" I shake my head, biting my lip on the opposite side of my spiderbites. "Okay, then why aren't you talking to me?" I shrug and go back to putting blankets on. Suddenly, she knocks me on my back and gets on top of me, straddling me. I start breathing heavily. "Tell me now." I shove her off, standing up and facing her.

"You wouldn't understand if I told you." I walk out of the tent, shoving past Spencer when he tries to stop me. Since my Jeep's empty by now, I get in and start driving the opposite way from the direction we came. I drive for about 45 minutes before I pull over. I start crying, breathing heavy, shaky breaths.

"Fuck!!!!!!" I hit my steering wheel, letting sobs wrack my body. I sit there crying for a while when Daniel's truck pulls over behind me. Suddenly, my door opens and Daniel's pulling me out. Mike gets in my jeep, pulling out and heading back towards camp. Daniel puts me in the back seat. Amber's sitting back there too and she pulls me over to her so that I'm laying against her, my back pressed against her front. She just holds me as Daniel drives.

"Dom, what the hell happened?" I try to get up, so she holds me tighter. The more I struggle, the tighter her hold gets. "Dom, stop! I wanna help, but I can't if you won't let me!" I stop moving. I take shuddering breaths, trying to calm down.

"Ashtyn thought I w-was mad at h-her, so she a-asked me w-what was wrong. I s-said sh-she wouldn't unders-stand and drove off. I h-hate the way I f-feel about her!" Amber pets my hair, which helps me calm down a little.

"She understands though. Ask her." I don't understand how she would ever know how I feel. She's obviously not like me. She's not like that.

I end up falling asleep before we get there. I wake up in the tent to Ashtyn and Amber yelling at each other.