Dreams

Chapter 5

I took this notebook to school. I'm dead if anyone finds it. Thank goodness for second period study hall, when everyone else is still so tired they either sleep or play around on the computers in the media center. I went to bathroom and never came back, and no one seems to have noticed yet. For some unknown reason there's a chair in the handicapped stall, so thankfully I don't have to sit on the floor.

So here we are. And I'm going to tell you the things I've never told anyone else, ever.

1. I actually hate the way my hair looks in a bun. I wish ballet didn't require one. And I don't like that my hair is medium length, and this boring nondescript blondish color, and generally exactly the same as what everyone else in the universe has. If I wasn't in ballet I would cut it so short I wouldn't be able to put it in a pony tail. And maybe dye it purple.

2. Sometimes I actually think about quitting ballet. Even though I love it. It just takes so much time, and it's so frustrating sometimes. And sometimes I just wonder if it's not the  most important thing to me in life.

3. I told Chelsea that I can't go shopping today because I have ballet, but I actually don't, I just didn't want to go.

4. I don't actually like bunnies at all. They're not any cuter  than any other small animals, they just have big ears. I don't get it.

5. I actually believe in aliens. Like, not just as a fun, oh what if I believed in aliens, that would be cool, thing. But actually, I am quite sure there are aliens out there somewhere. I don't know how far away, or what they're like, but they're there. For certain.