I Will Never Ask You To Stay With Me

First And Last

Five years ago when we met each other. Started by being friends, because of friends, then being actually friends. Carefully glancing at each other when we are in one place so friends would not notice that there is maybe a lil "thing" between us. Days later, you texted me and gave me a hint of something you want to ask me, funny how it first ended because I replied back directly, "You shouldn't do this, your girlfriend might get hurt, we both know this is wrong. Just stop it okay? Whatever you're planning to do or say, just stop."

It was late when someone told me you were single and not dating anyone. So I guess it was my fault, I never gave you a chance to explain to me everything.

After that, I never received a text from you, no Hi, or Hello. Guess you already got over with it and just moved on. Months later, I received a message from you on Facebook, you were asking me how am I doing, I said "I'm doing very great." And I asked you back your question, you replied hours later saying "I'm fine too, you haven't changed, you are still beautiful like just the way I first saw you." I would never deny it, when I read it I was smiling, I mean a real smile, it made my day. It made me think too, what if we continued the "thing" we had for each other before, what if I said yes? What if I texted you something that would make you think about the "thing" between us? What if I gave you my trust that time? Are we happy? Will we give each other enough time? Questions running inside my head. But yea, I guess we did the right thing not to continue entertaining that "thing" between us and just focus on that we have right now.

3months later I heard from a friend that you are happily in a relationship with someone and your girlfriend will be my workmate soon, but OH not just that, guess what??? She will be my housemate too! Great! Yea.............

It wasn't that I was jealous or something, its just "AWKWARD" ya know??

So yea, your girlfriend, we used to live at the same roof, we do things together, we drank together, just me and her. She even used to open up some of her problems with me, and she told me stories about you, about how you two met each other, the memories, the coincidences those things, really awkward to me. But then I got used to it, she was a good friend to me so I was comfortable being with her, it became natural. I know how much she loves you, and I know you love her more than she could ask for. Red roses and chocolates for her on special occasions, surprise visits and mini vacations with her, even celebrating new year's with her, at our place, together with our workmates, housemates, friends. Then I saw you staring at me, not a glance, but a real stare, and somehow I felt something different, but not like the feeling I felt for you before.

One of your close friend, and he's a close friend to me too, started to show some affection for me and started courting me. Gave me surprise visits, a bouquet of red roses and a home made cheesecake on my 23rd birthday. You knew his true feelings for me, you accepted it and cheered for him. It looks like were happy for me, so then I was happy for you too.

Never noticed that there was something wrong between you and your girlfriend, she looked the same everyday, she's this jolly and funny and sweet girl that always have this energy to make people around her laugh and stress free, she's older than me, but acts like a sweet 16 year old who still wants to discover life a lil bit more different. I can't even imagine where did she got this enthusiasm that she have when people is around her, she does not look like the kind of girl who would hurt you or cheat or lie. She's pretty, with or without makeup. I envy her sometimes, her style, her hair color, her eyes, lips, smile, just so perfect, and so I thought you were perfect for each other. You both have this fair skin, amazing eyes, thin lips, and a perfect face, so you two could really be meant for each other. But, not really, everything I thought turned out opposite. She cheated, she lied, and you felt disgusted on what happened to her and so am I when I knew the truth between your break-up.