After I Fall (One Direction) *Extreme carrottness*

Chapter Six

Chapter 6

RECAP: Sitting on a big rock facing the pond, I hear a familiar voice calling my name. “NICOLA! NICOLA IS THAT YOU!?”  I whip around, expecting to see Mai or one of the boys, but instead I see the person I thought I would never see again…

~Nicola’s P.O.V~

I sit up quickly and run into his arms. His familiar scent comforted me, it always has. He was a lot taller than me, so I had my face in his chest.

“Carter I missed you so much.” I hugged him as tight as I could.

“Nicola! Don’t go walking around London alone at night!” He looked me in the eye.

“Wait... what?” How did he know where I was?

“Mai called me. Asked me if I could call you and cheer you up… When we were talking she noticed you were gone. I came to London as fast as I could, and the park was a shortcut to your place.” He explained. Carter moved to Paris in third grade, so It takes us around 3 hours to visit each other.

“Oh… so… You know?” I looked down.

“Yeah she explained… I understand how you would be mad at her, but I think you should give her a chance to be the mom she wanted to be. Mai was only doing what she thought would be best for you.” I swallow abruptly.

“But she kept it from me for so long…” I tried not to cry.

“I know, and that’s a mistake she obviously regrets. But she is here now to change that and make up for the years she wasn’t there for you. Don’t you want that? You finally know who your mother is, and you’re pushing her away.” We were now sitting on a park bench.

“Thanks Carter. You always know how to cheer me up. Did you come to London alone?” I looked up at him.

“Yes. I was worried about you… Please never go walking alone at night again? What if you were hurt, or hit by a car, raped, killed, kidn-“He was rambling on about possibilities.

“Carter! I promise I will never go walking around London alone again. Now can we just go home, I’m freezing?” I promised him. He wiped the tears that were resting on my cold cheeks and took of his jacket. Carter placed the warm fabric over my shoulders and put his arm around me.

“Carter keep your jacket on. You’re in a tank top for goodness sake!” I tried to give it back, but he refused.

“Keep it. You’re my main concern right now, Cola.”

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We walked back to the house in silence, just me and him in the cold night. It was so peaceful, just walking in the chilly November air.

Emphasis on -WAS-

The moment i stepped through the door, I was crushed by a big embrace

"Please never do that again. I was so worried!" An Irish accent murmured in my ear.

I was ripped away from Niall's warm body and turned to face Dad, who was red faced from anger.

"H-Hi dad....." I looked at my shoes.

"What. The. Hell Nicola! Never leave like that again! You are so irresponsible!" He yelled in my face. The big tears started streaming down my cold face.

"Daddy I'm-" I tried explaining

"NO! Listen to me! That was so irresponsible and self centered! You left us all worrying and scared that you may have been kidnapped or murdered or-" Harry got cut off by his voice cracking. Tears escaped his eyes and he took me in his arms.

"Please... Just never run away again!!" He whispered in my ear.

I nodded at dad and turned to look at everyone else.

All their faces had either an angry or disappointed look on them. Mai however had a sad look on her face. I directed my vision towards the ground and shuffled my feet. I can't believe I did that.... I am irresponsible.

Liam stood up from the sofa he was sitting on and grabbed Dani's hand, leading her to their room. Next to go was Louis, followed by El. Zayn, Perrie, Niall and Harry were the last to go. None of them would look at me. I really messed things up.

Just as I thought it was just me and Carter, a voice spoke up from behind me.

"I'm sorry I never told you about... You know, me being your mother and all." I jumped a little, startled by Mai. I can't believe she stayed....

"Don't be sorry Mai. I should be sorry. I don't hate you, I truly don't! I was just shocked and I didn't know what was going on and I was scared. I didn’t mean anything I said I swear! I totally understand how you just couldn't take care of me at such a young age; I probably would have done the same thing if I was in that situation. I don't blame you at all and I'm so so sorry!" I rambled on.

Mai pulled me into a big hug. She kissed the top of my head and assured me that it was okay.

Mai turned to Carter that was awkwardly standing in the doorway.

"Thank you Carter for bringing Nicola home safe!" She hugged Carter too.

"Hey Mai. It was no problem! I'm so glad she’s safe." He looked at me and smiled, his cute dimples showing. He always made my heart race. His smile is beautiful and-

NO NICOLA! Stop thinking like that, you guys are best friends, nothing more. He's two years older than you, he sees you as a kid. He doesn't like you, you don't like him.

I shook the thoughts from my head.

"We'll I should get going now... I have work in the morning!" Mai grabbed her coat and shoes.

"Thank you Mai-" I cleared my throat. "Mum. Drive safe!" She smiled wide as I call her mum.

I close the door behind her as she steps out.

"I should probably go and catch the train...." Carter says.

"Carter? The trains don't run at 1:40 in the morning... Stay here." I pulled him into the living room where mine and Mai's temporary bed still was.

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Three movies and a ton of food later, we lay under the mound of blankets and pillows.

I was now wide awake, while Carter was sound asleep, so I carefully peel back the blankets. I tip-toe up the spiral staircase and walk into Harry's room. Dad lay asleep on the bed with tear marks down his face. I grab my diary from my hiding spot and close the door quietly.

I've written in my diary a lot lately, it’s a good way to get out your feelings and problems. I've written about everything from the bullying to the cutting and the voices.

I picked up my purple inked pen and opened the book to a blank page.

A/N

SOO! I wrote this chapter while I was at a baby shower.... It was really boring so i went to the kitchen with her daughter and wrote. Dedicated to Emmalee because she watched me write this! YAY!! haha

Okay school starts soon and I need to get my sleeping schedule back on track! Grr :( 

No more late night updates:( I was going to update this last night but I know that once im on my phone, im on there for a looong time. Oops :(

Sorry i dont update a lot guys... I feel it is better if I just update like I am because of school and stuff... You get it right?

Okay Everyone should TOTALLY go listen the My guurls Megan and Liz! Their new song "In The Shadows Tonight" Is literally to DIE FOR! I. Am. Obsessed.

I need an intervention. 

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~LuLu xx !! <3 :)