After I Fall (One Direction) *Extreme carrottness*

Chapter four

CHAPTER 4

~Nicola’s P.O.V~

“Nicola! Nice to see you again!” She smiled sweetly at me.

“Mai! You’re my doctor??” I smiled back at her.

“Yeah! I’m filling in for Marlene!” She sat down in her rolling chair and rolled over to where I was sitting.

“So what’s up?” She grabbed her clipboard.

“I U-Uhm….” I looked hopefully to Harry as they chuckled lightly.

“She has been hearing voices lately… they tell her to do weird things..” He tried to explain.

“How long have you had those voices?” She looked at me.

“Uhm… a year maybe?” I guessed.

“Okay. What sort of things do they tell you to do?”

“Well…. On Friday they told me to cut myself. They kept telling me I was worthless and everyone hated me. Stuff like that...” I looked down.

“Did you cut yourself?” She questioned.

“Y-Yes…. I couldn’t help myself. I just wanted the pain to go away.” My voice cracked slightly at the end. Tears were forming in my eyes.

“What kind of pain?” She asked me with worried eyes.

I stayed silent. I can’t tell Harry. He will make a big deal out of nothing.

“Nicola?” She urged me on.

“Um…” I didn’t know what to say.

She sighed. “Harry? Could you step outside for a moment? This may be easier with less people.” She looked at Harry.

“Of course! He smiled at her and patted my back, giving me a reassuring look.

“Want to tell me what’s going on?” She asked.

“I-I…. I have been bullied since third grade. Every day the pain gets worse and it makes me feel like crap. I just didn’t know what to do Mai!” I sobbed.

“Does your father know about this? Anyone in your family but me?” She questioned.

“No…. Just you. I would like to keep it like that too. Please telling my dad will only make it much much worse… Please” I whispered the end. If I trusted anybody to keep a secret this big, it would be Mai. She had a reassuring vibe around her.

“Okay… but if it doesn’t get better soon, it’s my job to tell someone.” She warned me.

“Y-Yes.” I wiped my tears.

“Back to the voices, have you gotten any hallucinations, smells, or feelings lately?” she wrote every detail on her clipboard.

“Yes…” I told her.

“Give me examples.” She looked me in the eyes.

“Well, on Friday, when I looked at my pancakes, it looked like the Nutella on them was bubbling. The voices told me it was poison.

Last Wednesday, when I was trying to sleep, I felt like there were ants crawling all over me. I could also smell this horrid odor.” I tried to remember a few examples.

“Hmm… Well I think that’s all I need to know. I will bring your dad back in and I will be right back!” She smiled warmly at me. I nodded at her and greeted my dad as he walked back in.

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My leg bounced up and down as I waited for Mai to come back.