SELENAS POV
Dark, a deep dark hole, that's what I'm caught in. There's not even a crack of light to fill the misery that I have myself stuck in. On the out side, I'm just like every other eighteen year old girl. I wear make up, look after my body, do my homework and love to eat junk food. On the inside though, that's where most of the demons from my past hide. I'm not a normal person, in fact, no one is, but I'm a little less ordinary then most human beings. I push people away, I don't have friends, and I don't love. The only two good things in my life are my nana, little sister and my dog Rex. The over sized German Shepard is dumb sometimes, but he keeps me company. I'm not known to talk much, in fact at school that's the thing that I avoid most. Speaking is the worst weapon that god created within us. We use words to hurt people, then use them again to make up for our mistakes, then hurt people again. If I was to speak my mind, I wouldn't be getting any further, so it's better to keep my mouth shut. To me, being the prettiest, or most popular girl in school doesn't matter either, it just shows the desperate side of people, and brings out the worst in not only girls, but boys. I've been hurt many times in my life, I have the scars to prove it and that is why I keep to myself. I will never love, I will never grow up and have children, and I will never be happy like I used to be. The only reason that I'm still on this earth is because my mother used to tell me that life is a gift, to not throw it away with pills a rope or a blade. It seems pointless to be here though, because everything that had a significant purpose to me is gone, and I can't get it back, no matter how much I cry, scream or beg. They aren't coming back. But I stay, I stay because I don't know how to go, I can't bring myself to it because I'm stubborn. And every single day, I hate myself for that. I hate the fact that I am living the life of Selena, Marie, Gomez.
