Hidden Love

Strong

Louis surgery won't be done for another hour and even after the surgery I can't see him until 3 days after.

This sucks. This fucking sucks. I've never been so nervous, scared, and upset in my life.

Dammit why does my life have to be so fucked up?

Why can't it be simple? Why can't me and Louis just be in love and date and not have to hide it? Because honestly hiding our love is the hardest thing I've had to do.

Why can't it be like it was back in 2010?

This Is way too fucking hard.

There is so much going on in my head right now... too much.

I need to get some sleep. I'm not leaving the hospital though, I promised Lou I would never leave him.

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I can't fucking sleep.

I can't sleep without him.

I feel shattered.