....Jealousy...God does it hurt the heart. </3 While the bad thoughts fill your head and you can't stop them as they start tearing your Mind, Heart and Soul to pieces... The urge to see the blood drip out of the cuts you make with the blade that holds so many memories.. It's hard to stop the sensation... The scars that also hold so many memories that the blade had left behind, keeps reminding you of your mistakes and choices.. If you go through the things in my head you'd understand why I do this to my self. Once in public someone you know notices these marks from the blade. They confront you in Why's and How could you? I say "You don't understand." They say "But you're hurting yourself!" I'd just walk away and say "I don't care."
The jealousy.. The pain.. The scars.. The hiding.. The loneliness.. The cold dark thoughts. It's all a matter of time till they get to your head.. Even if they get to your mind by the slightest the darkness will slowly take over leaving you randomly depressed and having thoughts that make you depressed. You'd cut more often.. You'd yell at the world exclaiming Why!? But it's just a circle... We can all break free from our darkness but never get rid of it. It's never going to go away. It will always be there. You have the possibility to break free and not be so down... But me? It's already consumed my mind heart and soul and have been tearing them apart for way to long... It's hard cause.. Hehe.. I can't drown out my demons... They know how to swim
( Authors note: Sorry guys this is really depressing but.. I guess I just am really emo... I get depressed a lot so.. During my depression time I write
My feelings down... Please don't hate....)
