The judge {Robert Downey Jr} UNDER EDITING

Painful

Robert's Pov
"Rob can you get the baby?" Susan asked me.
I nodded and walked out of the kitchen and into the living room where little Exton was laying in his crib.
"Hey little guy" I whispered, getting him.
He was starting to grow, his hair longer and his little body getting puffier. He was now a month old.
He flashed me a smile, his big blue eyes turning bright.
"You stole your momma's eyes didn't you?"
I said, taking him into the kitchen.
I got close to Susan, carefully putting the baby in her arms.
She smiled and sat down on a chair
She raised a part of her shirt to breast milk Exton.
I turned away, feeling melancholic once again.
It happened every few minutes, my happiness sinking, making myself fall into a deep numb state.
Nothing actually hurt.
I just couldn't feel anymore.
Part of me died when Leighton crashed that car a month before.
Part of me died when the little life growing inside her stopped.
I couldn't stand thinking about her, it was painful.
So I thought about nothing.
I knew leaving her behind wasn't fair, it was the worst idea I've ever had.
But I had to do it.
I was hurting her. It was my fault that she tried to kill herself.
And not matter how much I wanted to stay with her and make her happy, I knew it couldn't be done.
So I moved back in with Susan, helping her with the baby and the after pregnancy stuff.
"Rob, you okay?" I heard Susan's voice and turned to look at her.
Her shirt was back in place, and the baby was asleep in her arms.
"You zoned out again"
"Sorry" I said
She sat there looking at the baby
"He's got your smile" she whispered.
I smiled, looking at Exton myself.
"He looks like his momma though"
Susan looked at me and smiled, but then it dropped almost as quickly as mine.
"Robbie, I know you miss Leighton"
I closed my eyes shut, the name burning my ears.
"I know it hurts. But she's the one who's in pain! You need to get back and support her. She needs you"
I shook my head
"You do love her, Robert. Right?"
I opened my eyes
"So much it's hard to breathe"
She smiled softly
"Then you have to get her back. She'll probably want nothing to do with you, but you have to beg. You have to plead. But most importantly be there for her. She just lost her baby, she just tried to kill herself. She is fragile and wants you to be by her side"
I nodded.

"Blake" I said, calling her while I got on the plane.
"What" I heard her say from the other line. She was pissed off
"Look, I know you think I'm a dick and you're probably right. But I'm coming to Boston because I need to be there for her"
I heard her snort
"So you remember? Nice! I thought you forgot about your fucking girlfriend and almost mother of your child"
"I never forgot about her, Blake! It was hard to see her like that. And all because of me"
Then I registered what she said
"It was mine?"
She sighed
"Turns up Ed is sterile"
I felt a huge ball form in my stomach
"I'll be there in four hours."
I quickly said and hung up.
It was mine.
We were almost having a baby.
I was almost gonna be father for the third time.

When i got to Boston, I didn't even know where she was.
I had to call Blake once again, and found out they were back at Leighton's apartment.
While the cab driver drove me there, I realized I had nothing to say to her.
I had no excuses for leaving and abandoning her.
So when I walked up those stairs and knocked on her door, my heart was beating far too fast, and my mind was running wild with ideas.
Blake opened and immediately sensed something was up.
The air was too heavy
"She's in her room"
I nodded, dropped my bag to the floor and walked those steps that seemed infinite.
I didn't bother knocking on her door, it was half closed.
So I softly pushed it open, finding her there.
She was crumbled up in a ball on her fire escape.
She didn't even consider me, maybe she thought I was Blake once again stepping in her room to check on her.
She was turned to the street, so I couldn't look at her face.
I slowly walked to the window, tears forming in my eyes as I got closer to her skinny broken body.
"Leigh?" I whispered, once I was at the window.
She turned to me.
Her face was different.
She was different. Only a month had passed but she seemed strange.
Her eyes were partly opened, she had dark bags under her eyes.
Her lips were cracked.
Her arms were far too skinny.
Her hands sat on her lap, twitching in a weird way.
Her wrist was still broken.
She stared at me, her lips opening slightly but she didn't speak.
She just looked at me.
"I'm sorry" I said, I felt a tear escape from my eye.
"Why did you come back" she whispered, her voice cracked.
"Because I love you" I said.
She turned to the street again
"I lost our baby" I heard her say, her voice hard.
"It doesn't matter. As long as you're okay" I said, slowly getting out on the fire escape too.
"But I'm not okay" she said, turning to me. Tears were falling from her eyes
"I am a murderer, I killed my own baby."
I shook my head, tears falling harder from my eyes
"Don't say that"
"I am! I should be dead! I should fucking be dead!"
She yelled, she started sobbing.
I quickly sat down next to her,
Wrapping my arms around her, pulling her head on my chest.
"I love you" I whispered in her ear, as she kept sobbing and I kept weeping.
"I love you and I am so fucking glad you're alive."
She looked up to me, her eyes big and red.
"I thought you left for good" she whispered
I shook my head
"I'm back baby. And I'll never leave again"
I got my face closer to hers, and pecked her lips.
"I'll always be here."
I whispered in her ear.

Robert came back! :)))
I have to admit I kinda got emotional writing this chapter.
Hope it got to you guys too!
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