schizophrenic love

your not

I woke up next to hayden. Oh god we had sex last night. I sat up.he was still asleep. I've never had sex before..due to my problems. Hey.he said kissing my hip. D..dont touch me.i said. What.he asked. I grabbed a shirt that was on the floor and put it on and went into the bathroom locking the door behind me. Fuck.i whispered. I began to cry into my arms. A knock came at the door. Baby..are you okay.he asked. Leave me alone.i said. Please let me in.he said. I thought about it before slowly opening the door then taking my seat on the floor were i had been.whats the matter.he asked. I..we..had sex.i said. Yea..and.he asked. I've never had sex before.i whispered. Never.he asked. I shook my head. I've been in the hospital since i was 15.i said. Oh.he said. The voices were screaming in my head. I covered my ears. Stop it stop it.i said tears falling from my eyes. Brandon its okay don't listen to them shh.he said rubbing my back. Make it stop hayden please.i cried.he wrapped his arms around me.shhhhh its okay their not real baby.he said. Im scared hayden.i whispered.i know.he said. He sat there holding me and rubbing my back. I finally stopped crying and he picked me up and carried me to the bed. Alright..I'll make you some breakfast.he said.i nodded. He left the room and i could hear him in the kitchen. I began to look around the room. I found a file..it had my name on it.i opened it. Brandon suffers from schizophrenia and insanity . What.i whispered. I walked into the kitchen. Hayden.i said. Yea.he asked. What is this.i said. A..file...why.he said. Your saying im insane im insane hayden?! . I shouted. Baby.he started. Don't baby me do you think im insane.i asked. He sighed. DO YOU.i asked. No Brandon i dont.i said. Then why is it in the file.i asked. I didnt write it brandon some other doctor did.he said. He looked at me with his big brown eyes. I sighed. Im sorry i overreacted.i said. He hugged me. Your not insane in the membrane.he said.i laughed. Your not insane okay.he said. I nodded. Now wanna help me cook.he asked.i nodded.he smiled. He told me how to make a omelette. There ya did it.he said. Yay.i said. Your so cute.he said. Once we finished Cooking breakfast we went back to his room. I flipped on the tv and we ate our omelettes and bacon.