| April 20, 2016 | 10:14 aм |
тнe тearѕ jυѕт ĸeep ѕтreaмιng down мy ғace.
мy cнeѕт ғeelѕ ѕo нeavy;
ι can'т conтrol мy вreaтнιng.
мy нandѕ are all ѕнaĸy.
I'm layιng нere cryιng.
ι love you all тoo мυcн,
ιтѕ pнyѕιcally нυrтιng мe.
тнeѕe тнoυgнтѕ and мeмorιeѕ jυѕт won'т go away.
yoυ leғт мe wιтн ѕo мany мeмorιeѕ, тнaт aғтer yoυ leғт тнey are wнaт'ѕ ĸιllιng мe ιnѕιde.
wнen ι тнιnĸ oғ yoυ,
ι тнιnĸ oғ нow нappy ι waѕ вecaυѕe ι нad yoυ.
wнen ι looĸ aт мy pιcтυreѕ,
ι can'т нelp вυт cry вecaυѕe ι υѕed тo вe ѕo нappy wнen we were тogeтнer.
now all you're ιѕ jυѕт a мeмory.
A memory тнaт ι can'т geт rιd oғ.
yoυ are conѕтanтly ιn мy тнoυgнтѕ.
wнy can'т yoυ jυѕт leave мe alone ғor once?!?
waιт.... ι dιdn'т мean тнaт,
don'т leave мe alone.
ι need yoυ.
yoυ were тнe only one wнo нelped мe geт oυт oғ тнe depreѕѕιon ι waѕ ιn.
вυт now yoυ're gone and тнe depreѕѕιon нaѕ caмe вacĸ.
jυѕт тнιnĸιng oғ тнaт мaĸeѕ мe realιze мy realιтy rιgнт now...
YOU'RE GONE.
ιт нυrтѕ ѕo мυcн тo ѕee yoυ wιтн нer.
ιт ĸιllѕ мe everyтιмe ι ѕee yoυ love нer тнe way yoυ υѕed тo love мe.
мy нearт cracĸѕ a lιттle мore everyтιмe ι тнιnĸ oғ yoυ ĸιѕѕιng нer necĸ.
ιтѕ нυrтѕ even worѕe wнen ι тнιnĸ oғ wнy yoυ really leғт мe....
Because aғтer all,
yoυ leғт мe ғor нer...
Was ι ever good enoυgн ғor yoυ?
or dιd yoυ jυѕт υѕe мe to get to her?
(Maybe that wasn't intentional. Maybe she just wanted you after she saw how happy you were with me...)
ιт мaĸeѕ мe ғeel lιĸe yoυ never cared aвoυт мe ιn тнe ғιrѕт place.
You KNEW нow ғυcĸed υp ι waѕ вeғore yoυ even goт wιтн мe.
You KNEW нow daмaged ι was.
and yeт yoυ ѕтιll leғт.
WHY?
Maybe ι ғell way тoo ғaѕт ғor yoυ.
ι was тнe one wнo goт нυrт ιn тнe end.
And ғor a ѕecond an ιмage oғ yoυ ѕмιlιng ғlaѕнeѕ ιn мy мιnd.
yoυ're ѕo нappy and ғυll oғ lιғe,
While i'м over нere cryιng and gaѕpιng ғor aιr.
ι'м over нere loѕιng мy мιnd over yoυ wнιle yoυ're вυѕy тнιnĸιng aвoυт нer...
ι'м тнe one wнo won тнoѕe ι love yoυ мore ғιgнтѕ caυѕe ιғ yoυ really dιd love мe yoυ woυldn'т нave leғт мe.
вυт yoυ dιd ιт anywayѕ....
It doesn't matter though...
Cause in the end,
I'm still in love with you.
YOU ARE READING
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