Dreaming. *Zayn Malik.*

Chapter Six.

I'm back everyone it's okay! My laptop broke again so I'm on my dads computer and I'm getting a laptop for my birthday (early) but yeah. so this is dedicated to Lost_in_Dreams14 because her comment was the best. read at the end for the next dedication.

                “Sweetie you look amazing,” When Carly opened the door I didn’t really expect her belly to be so showable. But it was and she was overjoyed to see me enter her house for the first time since treatment. I looked around the living room as soon as I stepped in only to see Molly sitting on Tristan’s lap with a perfect smile playing on her lips looking down at him.

                I had totally forgotten about my group of friends with everything that had been going on. I felt really bad about it honestly. These were the people that were there for me from the beginning and we had all been through so much together, yet I forgot to keep in touch with them when treatment started. I felt really shy around them all of a sudden; the only one other that had seen my bald head was Carly since she had just opened the door for us.

                It wasn’t a surprise to me that when the other three members in the room let their mouths drop in shock when they saw me. They all knew it was coming, the day my hair would be gone, but none of them knew it had already happened. The mouth-dropping didn’t last long though because Molly stood up and skipped over to me and hugged me tight to her body. Something was going on with her, but I wasn’t going to question it right now because they all called us here for some reason.

                “Hey Zayn! How’s it going?” I heard Tristan say as Zayn made his way to the couch. I didn’t hear his reply though because I was being drug off to the kitchen were apparently the girls were talking in private before the big news was announced. They hadn’t officially said it was big news- but I knew from being friends with them for so long. Either we were finding about the sex of the twins or someone was moving. Something big was happening.

                “So what’s it like being married? Honestly because I’m so nervous.” Molly twisted her engagement ring around her finger a couple times but still managed to smile down at it. I had never seen her so happy in my life. Tristan made her happier than anyone had ever made anyone –excluding Zayn and I- but she deserved it. 

                “Honestly? It’s the best thing in the world. I love waking up every day and seeing his face. I love being able to say that I tied the player down, and I love knowing that I know that every day of every months of every year for the rest of my life, Zayn will be there and be taking care of me. It’s really the most amazing feeling in the world. You and Tristan will be amazing. Oh and you and Zach when the time is right.” I smiled at my two best friends. They both had bittersweet smiles on their faces. Molly staring wide eyed at her ring and Carly rubbing her stomach softly.

                “You know what would make this day better?” The mood had completely changed and it was like we all knew the answer to Carly’s question without even speaking. All at the same time looking past Molly to the fridge were a picture of Carly and Matt was magnetized to it.

                “He could have been so happy. But imagine, meeting Matt’s boyfriends,” I had to lighten the mood and I guess I succeeded because small giggles came from both girls. Carly looked up at us with a small glaze over her eyes.

                “He’d be able to get married now in the UK. He probably would have beaten all of us.” And this made us laugh. But we all reach to each other and held hands in the middle of our bodies.

                “He didn’t deserve to die so young. I wish he would have at least left us a note you know.” I whispered. The only thing I got in return was Molly reaching over and lightly taking my locket in her tiny fingers.

                “He’s always here we have to remember that. But let’s go. We have news.” Molly quickly wiped her eyes and started to the living room. I just smiled tightly at Carly as we walked hand in hand to the living room.

                I instantly took my seat on Zayn’s lap with his hands making their way around my waist. In return I smiled at him and kissed his temple while my arms wrapped around his neck. We both smiled and nuzzled into each other. I believed he knew we had been talking about Matt. He had a weird way of reading my every move and thought.

                “So me first!” Molly stood in front of all of us. The only thing between her and the rest of us was a glass coffee table that Carly and Zach had bought together not thinking about poor Jace, or the two soon to be entries to their family. Carly and Zach were sitting next to Zayn and I with their hands entangled with each other’s. Tristan sat on the love seat with a smile on his face, clearly already knowing what she was going to say.

                “Well Tristan and I set a date, March 24.” We all cheered at this. They had awhile to go, but probably just enough to get the wedding together and working. But as I did the math in my head before Molly could even continue I figured it out.

                “I’m pregnant. The wedding will be a month after the baby is due.” I felt myself stiffen at the news. I was really happy for them so don’t think I wasn’t. I mean both of my best friends in the world were going to get to have babies and be mothers together. But the news saddened me because I was starting to realize that I would never get to experience being pregnant and being a mother. It was a silly pipe dream.

                Zayn’s arms tightened around me obviously realizing that what she said had affected me. Zayn’s perfectly smooth lips landed in a sweet kiss on my shoulder trying to comfort me. I guess I had lost track of what had happened because now Carly was sitting in front of us with her belly in our faces. She wore a shirt that I was just realizing fell over her stomach cutely.

                “So I just wanted you all to know we are having two beautiful girls.” And we all cheered again. Jace was going to have two little sisters that he would need to love and protect, and it was no doubt in my mind that he would because I had watched him grow and develop and Carly had done a great job at raising her little boy by herself.

                “Congratulations to all of you but I am feeling kind of sick so I think I’m going to head home.” It wasn’t a total lie. I was feeling a bit weak and overly sick but I could have stayed if I wanted to. But I couldn’t stand to be around the girls with their perfect pregnancy glows and beautiful wedding plans. I felt completely out of place.

                When we were home I changed immediately into sweatpants and one of Zayn’s old sweaters while I turned down the temperature in the house. I wanted it to be cold because I wanted to feel something other than pain. So if I made it cold enough I could feel numb and then go under the blankets and thaw myself. So that is what I did.

                I didn’t think twice when Zayn crawled into bed behind me. His thin tattooed arm wrapped around my waist intertwining with mine on my stomach, my forever empty baby less stomach. I would never complete my bucket list. Zayn’s other hand went to my head and smoothed my bald head. He pressed a small loving kiss just behind my ear and whispered to me while silent tears fell down my pale face.

                “Everything’s going to be alright. We’re going to get number one done, I promise you. Everything will work out.”

The first one to tell me how Zayn and Erin met gets the next dedication! (: