Just His Best Friend?

[2] Too Much?

So as dad said "Let's celebrate" the first thing that came up my mind was drinking wine.

I love wine so much. Of all those alcoholic drinks, wine is the best on my opinion. I dont drink vodka or tequila or beer. Well yeah i do a bit. But wine, its really good. Well for some it isn't cause they prefer the more alcoholic ones.

So Mark passed me a drink which i actually didn't know. It was good.

"Mark what's this?" I asked

"Tequila Ash" he said

It tasted good. I didn't know it tastes good. Well, all i know is that I'm drunk.

"Ash?" Mark asked

"Sup" i said "I better go up to my room I'm pretty tired"

"Aww come one Ash just a few more drinks?" He asked

I couldn't say no. I mean. He's my best friend.

So i drank and i drank and drank as much as i can. Suddenly all turned black.

***

I woke up knowing i was in bed with  Jacob. Oh god what happened.

As i tried to get out of bed Jacob moved. Oh god. Please don't wake up i need o change.

"Ash stay with me" Jacob said

He's awake.

"I need to change Jake please?" I said

"Be back okay?" He said "i need to hug you"

Okay that was pretty awkward. Did he say he wanted to hug me?

"Uhm.. Sure"

So i went to the bathroom, combed my hair, and changed to my normal clothes. Those words kept coming back in my mind.

'I need to hug you'

Ash stop thinking about that he doesn't like you. He never will.

As i went out of the bathroom, he was still on bed but playing with his phone.

"Hey" he said "you done?"

"Yeah, I'm done" i said

He looks so hot in his messy hair. He should keep it like that.

It was too dim in my room so i decided to open the windows.

"Ash come over would ya?" Jacob said

As I've said i couldn't say no. If i would say no we would end up to a fight. Yeah. Thats why we usually fight. Kind of.

So i walked towards him. As I came closer to the bed, he moved a bit so i could have space.

"Let's get some best friend time" he said

Those words. Best friend. It hurts so bad. It feels like a wrecking ball had hit my heart.

"Yeah?" I said in reply

"Let's watch a movie" he said

So he chose 'Insurgent'. Yes. I know. I watched this movie a lot of times but i never get tired of it.

Watching that movie i thought of asking Jacob what happened.

"Jake?" I asked

"Yeah?" He said

"What happened last night? Why did i end up in my room?"

"Well you were too drunk. Your parents told me to bring you up here and told me i have to stay and take care of you"

I was drunk? That drunk? Did i drink too much? Oh gosh. At least it was Jake who brought me back into my room.

"Oh okay" i said "let's continue now"

So we watched that movie together. Only the both of us together. I don't care if it isn't an us, but this is so sweet of him.

After the movie i thought of admitting my feelings to him. Without the help of Tori i could probably boost my confidence.

"Jacob..." I said

"Yea?" He replied. On that second his phone rang "hang on a sec"

This always happens. I hate it when this happens. His call finally ended

"So what was it that you're about to tell me?" He asked

"I uhm..." I lost confidence "I'll prepare breakfast for us all"

God Ash spill the words! Be tough! I just can't. He doesn't obviously like me. This is so sad.

"Okay call me when done yeah?"

I gave a nod in return.

Is this what love really is? Having so much pain in the heart. I don't even have confidence to tell him. It has always been this way since high school. I wanted to tell him. I really want to tell him. But i can't. It's too hard.