The Love Diamond

Confession Time

November POV

"Adande you need to understand that you hurt me badly." I tell him.

"Yes but when you yelled at me saying you hate me, my soul was crushed." He retaliates.

"Just listen to my side of the story." I say as we both sit on the bed. He wipes another tear off. I really do miss him.

*********Flashback sounds and swooshing lights***********

A couple months earlier in Espresso Yourself

Brooklyn, Noah, Sage , Adande, and I were at our usual coffee spot, Espresso Yourself. For a punny name they had better coffee than Starbucks. Today was the day that I was gonna tell Adande that I loved him, for a really long time. The rest of our little group had been pushing me to do this and holding it over my head to confess. Today was the day, I even convinced them all to go somewhere so I can have Adande all to myself. I looked over at him and analyzed his face. God he was so hot without even trying. His lips, his hair ugh he looked like he was carved by god himself. Noah and Sage had gotten their espressos and I had some black coffee. Brooklyn got her usual strawberry banana smoothie and Adande got a rainbow bagel.

" Hey Brooklyn, nice to see you like to
try new things!" said Noah trying to mock Brooklyn.

" Haha shove this up your ass." she said picking up Adande's rainbow bagel.

" Hell no, give him your smoothie!" he said grabbing his bagel back laughing.

Ugh his laugh. I wish I could hear it every minute of the day. I want to be the reason he is happy.

We talk about, classes, couples, and coffee. We have only been here for 15 minutes but I just need to tell him soon or else I'll burst. I give the group a signal while Adande is distracted by a girl passing by. Crap.

"Noah and I have to go bowling with his sister." Sage states while eyeing Noah. He nods back at her while moving his eyebrows up and down at me. They grab their stuff and head out the small shop. Brooklyn flashes a large smile at me.

"I'm supposed to meet the Stryker sisters at the mall. November would you like to come?" She asks, knowing what I am going to say next. We rehearsed this at my house plenty of times.

"Nah I'm good. Iwill just chill with Adande." I say with an even bigger smile. Adande gives us strange looks but shrugs. Brooklyn walks out the store, but when Adande looks the other way she sneaks back in and sits at a booth in the back. I look around the shop. I see Brooklyn spying on us, shaking her leg like she is going to explode. Impatient child. There is also an old couple laughing and sharing a drink. I want that. Badly.

We talk about our usual things like track and the new kid Zikomo. I don't know how I felt about him, he was funny and I liked his moxie but he was one of the tallest kids I knew. Me and Adande had fun and made jokes but then I blurted out:

"I love you."

I started to panic on the inside.

"Yeah I love you too." Adande said cooly.

"No, I love you more than just a friend. I have always liked you in a way but I hid my feelings. I saw you as my sun to cheer me up. I really want this, us, to be a thing. We would dominate the school. I see you with other girls and I can't stand it. I want you all to myself." I sigh.

" Oh." he says.

" Oh? C'mon Adande don't you have anything else to say?"

" Look, November. I- I think that's sweet and all but-" he manages to say.

Pause.

" I can't love you like that. Not right now. I-I'm sorry. I'm sorry." he stutters. He gets up and walks out.

I sat their... like a fool. He didn't love me. All those times I was dreaming about him, he was thinking about someone else. I was an idiot. What made me think he could love me? All this time I thought I was good enough, but I wasn't. I could feel every ounce of pain I felt welling up inside me. I burst into tears. I tell him I love him and he just leaves me! I have the right to more of an answer than that. I don't understand why he didn't think I was good enough. Is it because I am not cool enough? Is it because I refuse to wear Jordan's? That's when Brooklyn came behind me.

"Hey. It's okay. I texted Sage and Noah and we are going to my place for ice cream. You can have a good cry there while we watch your favorite movies. " She whispers to me. "You are lucky to be confident enough to put your feelings out there."

" Everything is ruined." I say quietly.

" Hey, breathe. Everything will fall into place. It will. Nothing that just happened was your fault. Know that." she says reassuring me.

She carries me back to her house and I cry for the rest of the day. They don't talk to Adande for a while, until they started being cool with him later. But no one should be treated the way I was.

*********Flashback sounds and swooshing lights*********

"November, look I am sorry. I really didn't know I hurt you that badly." he quietly says.

More tears stream down my face. Someone bangs on the door. I am rattled by the hard knock. I wipe all my tears and jolt up on my feet leaving Adande on the bed.

" November I got to go!" Zikomo shouts. "I'll take you home but lets go!"

I was already hassled, and his attitude was not helping.

" First I need you to calm down. Second I am staying over here tonight." I say firmly.

"Just come with me now please!" Zikomo urges, as he opens the door.

"Dude lay off she's staying. Just go on your own. I'll make sure she stays safe." Adande says defending me. God he makes this all so hard.

Zikomo grabs my arm and yells we're going. His nails are digging in my skin and he won't let go. He never acted like this before. I slap him across the face. Time stopped for a second. I thought he was a good guy. I thought I finally found someone nice in my life. He better fix himself before he loses me.

"Just back off man." Adande says. "I wouldn't make her mad if I were you."

"Well you're not her boyfriend are you." Zikomo strikes.

"I don't have to be to know how to treat her." Adande claims.

"Well, you'll never get the chance to be with her." Zikomo says. "Learn to get over your jealousy. You know you want her. But guess what? She is mine and you know it."

"Both of you stop!" I scream getting in between the both of them. "Zikomo I am not property you can drag around. Learn to calm yourself. He was just defending me!" I yell to him.

" Fine. If you like Adande so much why don't you just date him?!" he yells.

I didn't need this. I did not.

" MAYBE I WLL." I say powerfully.

Zikomo looks like he could kill someone. But he walks out into the night. Leaving me emotionless. I turn to Adande with tears in my eyes. But he is speechless too. He walks out the room. Just like he did the day I told him I loved him.

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A lot happened in this chapter lmao. Another part may be posted later today too. Have a good Saturday, we love ya :)