Dear Diary,
Sam had said I should talk to this book, or you as a normal human being, so I will try my best and do as he had said.
Dean have gave me this diary. I didn't understood at first, why would Dean give me blank book? But then he had explained that this is called "Journal". That I should put here my thoughts, memories and other things. He said it might will help me understand better emotions and all things that are suddenly happening around me, ever since I have become a human. Thanks to Metatron fooling me and telling me closing Heaven would be a good idea. I now know it wasn't.
Dean says it's not my fault. That everyone makes mistakes. But I feel like I have made too many. I got fooled, I did bad steps or decisions. But Dean says I am good man. I might believe him.
But another thing that Dean had said is that humans often forget. He said along with giving me this Journal. He said that I can write down my memories. I said that I wont forget. I remember every little thing that happend in this universe. Or as much as Naomi haven't wiped of my mind. I often think if my memories of human history are right, but Sam helps me find out. Always, I remember correctly.
But Dean said that humans, with age, forget. As much as they don't want to. He says it like I wont be angel again. I don't know if I will be. But I think in case I will never get my grace back, I should write my memories down. Of my brothers and sisters. All memories I do not want to forget. Ones that are dear to me.
There are so many I do not know where to start.
I wouldn't tell any human my memories and thoughts. Maybe Dean and Sam. But you aren't exacly a human. You do not hold soul. So I suppose I can share. I can remember forever.
-C
