Healing a Heart (boyxboy)

i Fucked up

Jacob p.O.V

Walking into the hospital...all i could do was think about Chres and the babies. Diggy and i walked up to the desk.

Jacob:Chresanto August please..
.

Lady:wait in the waiting room

Jacob:bitch i need to get a room number. I need to see him now

Lady:i said WAITING ROOM!!

Diggy grabbbed me into the waoting room. I looked up and seen Nicki...crying.i rushed over and hugged her. she let go and gave Diggy a kiss.

Nicki:please dont leave. Dont leave me

Diggy:i wont babe. I promise

Jacob:did you see what happened Nicki?

Nicki:no..I went to pull my car up so he wouldnt have to walk across the parking lot and i drove up and everybody was surrounding him. I didnt even hear the gunshots.

Jacob:shots?

Nicki:yeah. There were 2 gunshots.

Jacob:where was he shot?

She didnt answer. The only thing that flashed im my head was STOMACH. What if the babies didnt make it. I looked over and seen Diggy looking at something on his phone which shocked him.

Diggy:omg

Nicki:what?

Diggy:Jay..

Jay:what

Diggy:they found your dad...

Jay:ok and. Idgaf

Diggy:dead

i looked at him. Tbh i didnt feel different. I felt relieved tho. I felt free.

Jay:well...He lived a good life.

I smiled.I looked up to see Chres mom  coming towards us. i stood up and hugged her. I started to cry.

Jay:is he alright?

Momma August: umm...Yeah. He's sitting in the room watching Badgirls Club.

Jay:can i go see him?

Momma August:Yeah..Go in room 51A.

I walked to the room. While i was omw...I started to get nervous. I knocked and walked into the room. He was smiling but when he looked at me..His smile left. Whats going on?

Jay:how you feeling

Chres:why you here?

Jay:im checking on you

Chres:i dont fucking need you to check on me. when i needed you ....You werent there so why you here now.

Jacob:and im sorry for not being there. I didnt know that was gonna happen to honestly. Im just happy you and the babies are ok.

He looked at me amd laughed.

Chres:babies??? babies ok??? the BABIES are DEAD!!! i was shot in my stomach idiot. And tbh..Im happy they are gone.

Jacob:why would you say something like that?

Chres:because i dont wanna any ties with you. Jacob...This wouldnt have never happened if i wasnt with you. I would be chilling..keeping my grades up.
.And not worrying about the star quarterback .  im the reason you out pf the hood...Im the reason your not gettimg raped right now...Im the reason your ALIVE!!!!JACOB PEREZ....I DONT WANT YOU ANYMORE!!

When he said that..my heart fell and my life vanished. This is all my fault. I took off the ring he gave me and put it on the table beside him. I walked out and let wiped my tears away. Was this the end of us? after all we been through. I walked back and into the waiting room.

Jay:Diggy lets go

Diggy:what happened

Momma August: is everything ok?

Jay:yes mam...I'll be by later to get my stuff. I love you and see you around.

I gave her a hug and left before she could say anything. i got in the car and sat there.

Diggy:what happened

Jay:we..Umm..We'reno longer together and its my fault.

Diggy:how is it your fault? you know we gotta take showers after P.E so were always late. Chres wasnt even suppose to be out there Jay.

Jay:who cares...ion have him..Or my babies.

Diggy:but you got me. Im not leaving your side

I didnt respond. I just kept on driving.i pulled up to my house and got out. I went in and seen everything like i left it. i went uptairs to my room and seen the a small blood stain on the floor. i looked on my bed and seen a letter

Dear Jacob,

     Hey baby...Its momma and i just wanna let you know that i love you and will always love ypu. You dont have to worry about the funeral or nothing because im shipping your father's body to Florida...Thats where im at. I left you the house and the two cars in the garage. I also left you $50,000 in the duffel under your bed. Your dad also left you something but you have to look for it. Well see you when i see you. Love you

I took the letter and put it in my drawer and pulled the money from under my bed. Diggy walked im and layed on the bed.

JAy:what some money

Diggy:yeahh...Give me $20.

I handed him a stack

Diggy:i said $20 not $1000.

Jay:dont worry...You my bestfriend. Ill give or get get you anything remember that.

I looked over to see my phone buzzing. It was Chres...wow. Havnt been an hour and he already calling. Poor thing. Imma do me for awhile then think about us.

Chres p.O.V

When Jay left out the door. I died. I just dont know how to love no one but my mom. I regret everything i said. I tried calling but he wont pick up.

Chres: i fuck up!!!