All Because Of A School

Chapter 7

Chelsea's P.O.V

Nour and me walked outside,

"whats up then" She asked

"Nothing" I say turning around

"your eyes are dull" she points out

"so..." i say just realizing

"they go dull when you're upset"

"that might of changed" i say trying to sound confident

"Chels just say whats wrong" she protest

"basically, once Melissa has her child I don't know if i'll be able to look after it sometimes, i might want to spend time alone or i might get a lot of home work so i don't want to tell her, she'll think i want to spend time with Niall" i say

"Just be honest with her, I'm sure she'll understand, i mean she knows about all the homework"

"But what about when i want to spend time alone" i say turning around

"Chels it's not your kid, you don't have to look after it if you don't want and she'll understand" she says trying to prove the point

"she wont she's one of my best friends she'll expect me to help, she always helps me" i say looking down

"Chelsea what's she's asking is massive, she will expect you to help with little things but not this, she wants you too but she understands you have a life too" she says

"Okay how about i say, i can only help with the little things, i can't really look after the child, i need to focus on school but i can help" i say

"Yeah that'll work" she says smiling, I'm guessing my eyes are still dull because she frowns a but but we go in, i slowly walk over to Mel and she frowns

"whats wrong Chelsea" she asks sweetly

"I... I..." i have trouble getting the words out

"you what?" she says

"I'm s...s...sorry" she looks at me confused and asks

"what for?"

"everything" i say turning around with tears in my eyes, i cant tell her i have to help her, she hugs me

"hey don't cry whats up?" she asks

"Oh... Just pressure"

"I'll help you out if you want" she offers

"NO....No, its fine" i say walking to my bunk

"Okay" she says and looks at me confused, i sigh and climb to the top bunk. Niall follows me up and plays with my tail on my onesie

"whats wrong love?" he asks

"Life" i say with a sigh

"whats going on?" he asks

"something to do with the child and i just don't have the to talk to Mel about something" I say

"Okay want to talk to me about it?" he says

"No, I'll be fine later" i say hoping he doesn't realize my eyes

"Okay but wheres the sparkle in your eyes" he asks me. Shit he noticed

"crap" i mumble to myself

"Love?" he says

"I'm fine" i say

"Okay" he says backing away, now i feel bad i close my eyes to stop the tears. I buried my face into my pillow, why was everything going to bad today? I wish i could die Right here right now, I hated everything. I was the worst person, all thanks to my stupid eyes everyone hates me, why couldn't i have eyes that didn't say how i was feeling, maybe if i just cry everything would be fine or would that cause more attention to myself? See if i care i just want myself to be happy again, i start crying into my pillow i try to be as silent as i can, everything has gone wrong since we moved here, i get up quietly not wanting people to see me and i go find my mum, she see's me