I Had You (Petetrick Oneshots)

Broken Promises (Part 2)

PATRICK POV

"Fuck!" I snap, kicking the cupboards in front of me as I watch Pete leave.
"Patrick?" Elisa turns to me, teary eyed. "Tell me what's going on. Right now."
I shake my head. "Elisa- I- not right now. I need- I need to be alone."
"Are you cheating on me with Pete?!" She follows me as I walk down the hall. "Patrick!"
"No! I would never cheat on you! We just- I can't do this right now okay? I need to figure out what's going on in my head." I turn to face her, voice quieting down. "Please just let me think."
"You're gonna leave me for him." Elisa whispers, placing a hand over her mouth and choking back a sob. "I knew it! Right from the start I knew there was more to you two than just friends!"
"Keyword in that sentence being was. Pete- I didn't know he still-" I shake my head. "I need to go."

With not a single clear emotion in my heart or brain I leave Elisa crying in the hallway and head outside, jumping in my car and driving away. What the hell was happening? Why had I told Pete about that photo?

Why did he still love me?

Why did I still love him?

I knew that I had never gotten over my feelings Pete rather than pushed them aside. It wasn't that I didn't love Elisa, I did, but it wasn't the same. No one was ever the same as Pete. I kept driving aimlessly, trying to organise my thoughts. The obvious thing to do was to go home, fess up to Elisa about what happened today and years ago and then continue as normal. Pete would cool down after a week or two at most, and then we could all just go back to normal. Everything would be normal. Normal. Normal.

But it wouldn't.

This time was different. Different for everyone involved. Pete had confessed that he still loved me, and feelings that I had worked so hard to hide and ignore were coming back to the forefront of my brain. And Pete wasn't going to forget about this one as easy as every other spat we'd had. I was confident that I could pretend it was nothing until I believed it, but Pete couldn't, and wouldn't, and we were half way through an album. We were running a schedule and we didn't have two weeks that we could spare to cool down and take a break. We also couldn't postpone anything, that would be too expensive and it wasn't fair of me and Pete to cost people money over personal issues as trivial as this. But I also knew that neither of us could work together like this.

***

I pull into a parking lot at the beach, sighing and running a hand down my face as I turned off the car. A glance at my watch told me I had been driving for around an hour lost in my thoughts. I needed to make decisions and fix this mess. First things first, what is the actual issue?

The issue was that Pete and I had a thing years ago and I screwed it up. However apparently neither of moved on, despite the fact we had both had other partners and gotten married since. In Pete's case, married and divorced, however right now we both had other partners. And kids. Hell, Meagan was pregnant! So we had feelings for each other, but we are with other people that we also have feelings for.

What are you going to do about it?

Knowing what I was going to do about it would involve knowing what I wanted. And I didn't. Who else was involved? Pete, Elisa and Meagan. What did they want? What did Pete want? Who knew? He told me to fix us, but did he mean that? Was he wiling to leave Meagan for me? Or was he just caught up in the moment and now regretting everything he said, including that he still loves me? And obviously Meagan and Elisa wanted their partners to stay with them.

But whose choice is it to make?

Mine and Pete's.