What A Smile Can Hide a.i

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              After I get home from yet another day of torment, I break down. Abigail has once again embarrassed me in front of a crowd of people who are already against me. Why was I ever friends with her. They call me emo, fat, a whore( even though I'm a virgin) and tell me to cut. It's a shame that I listen to them but it's so hard when almost everyone is going out of their way to make my day terrible. I am rather chubby but they don't need to point it out. I already do that enough. I break down sobbing even louder. No one is home and if anyone was they wouldn't care.                                                   

  
            I'm the middle child out of 5 different kids. The oldest being Vanessa who is rather sporty. She plays varsity soccer and she's a senior in high school. Then there's Rory who's a sophomore. He is the typical f boy and an attention hog. My youngest sibling is 5. Her name is Athena and just started kindergarten and is very smart for her age. But she is always getting  in trouble at school so my parents have to go to a lot of meetings with her teacher. The second youngest is saige. she is in third grade and is little miss drama queen. She is the biggest snitch there is. Then there is me; Jade. I'm very plain and have taken up an obsession with bands and youtubers. Im a freshman. I'm hateful and sarcastic and have one friend. Her name is Scarlette. She has helped me through a lot and knows me more than I know myself. I decide to call her. After a few rings she picks up and she immediately knows something is wrong. I try to stay calm and not lead on that I have been crying.

       "WHO DO I HAVE TO KILL," Scarlette screams

         "MY MIND" it's true. Most of the time my brain is the largest threat to me. My thoughts are killing me.

    "Come over," she whispers,"We could watch Disney movies and order pizza and you can sleep over"

          " You're the best," I say as I hang up and get ready. Since I am just going to her house I just throw on my penguin pants and I random mint shirts long with my converse. I also grabbed my teddy bear that I sleep with because I'm childish. I put up my hair in a sucky bun and grab my bag so I have something to wear at school tomorrow. I rush out the door to avoid the circus that is my
family. They are probably finishing there rounds of practice and clubs and parent teacher meetings. Tbh I have no clue. I rush out the door with my book bag and makeup bag because if we're being honest I look like a rat's butthole without makeup. Since my house is only a couple blocks away from Scarlette's I can just walk. I need the exercise anyway.

          When I get there I just walked in because I knew it was acceptable. A year ago I would have been terrified out of my wits to do that. For no particular reason, I was just really shy.

         When I walk in mounds of food were everywhere and I was using every once of self control I had to not dig in. My mood lightened as  I saw Scarlette on sitting on the couch, watching American horror story. I loved this show as well so I just plopped down best to her.

         She screamed and I almost slapped her out of reflex because she scared me. Then instead of screams or terror  she screamed in a very valley girl voice," HEY FAM," and then I screamed it back because why not.

         "I got a bunch of food as you can see." She said excitedly. She tells me she went to the 7/11 down the street to get all the food. I don't even know how she got  that much food that quickly. Do I walk that slow? Anyway she started listing tonight's events and stuff. She really likes planning things.

        "First we will build a fort. Then we will watch, wait," she paused,"do you wanna watch American horror story or Disney movies?"

       "American horror story." I reply.

       "Then we will watch American horror story. While doing this we will eat chips such as Cheetos, takis, Cheddar ruffles and more Cheetos. I ALSO GOT CANDY! I got umm sour patch kids,gummy bear AND worms and M&Ms and skittles and," at this point I tune out. But when she finishes I was ready to eat. I hadn't eaten since lunch and it was already 8.

        I asked Scarlette if she ordered pizza yet and she looked at me with a," CRAP I knew I forgot something," look. And then said," Nooooooo, not yet." And then she pulled out her phone and ordered a large cheese pizza because I'm a vegetarian and she is considerate.                                                                                  

      At this point we started watching American horror story and swooning at Evan Peters because let's be real that boy is fine. We were watching Murder House because that was our favorite season and Tate and Violet were really cute together.

      Then the pizza got there. Scarlette rushed to the door to pay. She then gets Mountain Dew for the both of us and she says she has a surprise .

       "What can be better than pizza?" I joke.

      She then gets this smirk and screams, "PICKLES!!!!"

       "YAY," I scream back because pickles are awesome.

       After a couple of hours we had finished ALL the food she got us. And I mean all of it. This is probably why I'm so fat.

      We got through about four episodes when Scarlette paused the tv. Naturally, I objected. I mean, we were getting to a good part.

      She asked me," Why did you break down earlier?"

     Since I knew that I could trust her I said," Abigail was taunting me with Erik." Erik is my ex. Our relationship ended around a month ago because he cheated on me with Abigail. I don't really know why I kept dating him. He was a sexist pig and was always undermining me. Of course, Scarlette knew this.

     "I thought you were over him!" She exclaimed," He treated you like shit!"

    "I am!" I raise my voice slightly. "But she was  saying that he was dating me out of pity! You know how I don't like being pitied!"

      "Girls keep it down!" Her mom yelled from her bedroom.

      "Sorry Ms. Dot!" I semi-yelled back.

      Now at a loud whisper Scarlette says,"I know I'm sorry. He's just so stupid."

       "I know." I regularly say back. " Anyway how's it going with your crrUuuuUUuusshhh?" She hits me over the head with a pillow.

      "Fine thank you." She then sticks up her nose because she's embarrassed. She has had a crush on Calum Hood for a while now. She gets all blushy and awkward when she's around him. I personally have no crush at the moments besides Alex gaskarth who doesn't even know I exist. This is because he's in a world famous band.

       At about one we decide to go to bed.  We are going to be zombies tomorrow. Hopefully tomorrow will be better than today. While clutching my bear named bunny I fall asleep.

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       This is hopefully going to get better later on and bare with meh

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