I know what could happen
I know how it could end
But I am in love
I know. . I know it's illegal
And we could be caught
But how can I turn away?
When all I can think about is
Her smile
Her hair
Her face
Her laugh
Her body
She makes me happy
I can't bare the thought of losing her
Here I am 19 and she's 15
It's not much of a difference
But in adult eyes its terrible
Oh help me I have madly fallen
The way she inhales the smoke of her cigarette
The way she quietly hums to her favorite song
The way she looks at me so adoringly
The way she looks at the sunset and its dying embers
I've never seen someone so beautiful
Her and her big brown eyes
No one has ever made me this happy
And I don't know what to do or how to react
What if we get caught?
What if it turns bad?
What if I lose her?
Or worse what if I lose myself?
Oh how I do love her
But she keeps me up at night
With the constant aching though that she'll be gone or she'll leave me
She gives me the constant fear that I'll never be good enough
The constant fear that he, the boy she fell for first will take her away
The constant fear she won't wake up
The constant fear that nothing will ever be the same anymore
I'm terribly terrified that everything will change, and I don't know if I'm ready for that . . .
