US?

4. It was far beyond strangers.

He was actually happy and so was I; His dad had left behind memories which Xey could go back to and smile, just like my mom did. Xey and I were just emotional douche bags so before any tear would fall out of joy. I ran into Xey’s car and sat in the driver’s seat and started the car.

“What do you think you’re doing?” Xey got up and stood infront of the car.

“If you don’t want to get run over by this car then you better get in?”

“Nope. Not gonna happen until you let me drive.”

I started the car moving a little ahead as Xey jumped and I started laughing.

“Fine, Fine. Be that way, if I die I know you’ll die along.”

“Pfft! Please, I wouldn’t do such a thing. Now Xey, Will you please get in? I’m not a five year old who doesn’t know how to drive.”

He rolled his eyes as he made his way into the car.

“Where are you taking me?”

“To the hospital.”

“Why?”

“I think I should have you seen by the psychiatrist.” I said it with the ‘Duh’ thing.

Xey gave me the fake laugh and went “You’re so funny”.

“I know.”

“Owkay then. Where are we going?”

“You showed me your special place and it’s only fair that I show mine.”

“Of course… Of course…” He said doing the retarded head moving thing.

And there we were listening to music and moving our heads back and forth with reoccurring laughs. The quite often he gives you a quick look from the corner of his eyes and looks away. The weird eye contact and smirks at the right side of your face to push away the awkwardness. I’ve had so many friends who were guys and it’s always been awkward and that’s why I like to push it away, sooner or later we end up avoiding it but with Xey it was different. It was like this one goofy friend of yours, with whome you were not exactly sure where this would end up going. But from what it seemed, he always stayed in the friend limits. At least for the week, I haven’t been close to someone so soon or so fast. It was just camp and the long conversations at the pond and I had this empty feeling in me that maybe today was the last day I’d be with him, laughing and actually enjoying being with him. Did things have to end like this? Ever since mom left me, I never let people get close to. All my friends just stayed friends, yes I am happy and really quirky but that doesn’t mean I don’t have issues. I’ve never wanted anyone to get close to me because the fear of losing them would get close to me. After losing my mom, dad was the only one I can still talk to about anything. And I don’t know how silly this sounds but Xey was like that, I could tell him anything and everything and I didn’t want to lose him now. But I couldn’t stop it either, it was quite a long ride to get to my special place as Xey’s special place was on the western outskirts of the town and mine was on the eastern side.

I was lost in thoughts and for the time I wasn’t interrupted with the ‘Are you owkay’ or ‘is everything alright?’ Xey would have said something like that but the music went quite and he feel asleep. The poor thing was being pestered by midgets the whole camp. And for the first time I was tearing up knowing that it was my fault letting Xey to get close to me and now there was nothing I could do to keep this friendship of ours going. More than anything i felt like a douche bag and i couldn't let my emotions ruin it for Xey so i decided to stay happy.

This special place of mine was in the middle of nowhere and there wasn't anyone around except me and a sleeping slob. This in the middle of nowhere place had no name and thats why it was so special to my mom and i, It had this huge tree and after that long rail of bushes with occasional green leaves during sprind but it was summer and we'd find twings. I had to wake him up because it was getting dark but it wasn't quite there. I tuned into a rock metal radio channel and there it was BANG! and Xey got up saying, "NONONON" stammering half the way and i was out of the car laughing to my deepest desires. And there he was stuck in the moment and recalling the whole thing. Red surfaced eyes with the cute little messed up hair and his hands in the air as though alarmed and here's the best part, he starts laughing along with me with his shyness. After the laugh-athone, i turn around and it was the perfect timing.. I run to Xey and pull him under the huge tree and climb over the bushes and i look at Xey and i couldn't be more happier to see his smile as it got wider along with his eyes opening wide and he says, "This is awesome." 

I wouldn't agree less it was, It was the sun set with this waterfall at a mere distance and it was just the perfect view. We were on high lands, it was scary to look at the pool of water flowing from below but the view ahead was amazing, watching the colours between ornage, yellow and red emerge, seeing those birds make their way home, the water flowing down with the machanism of gravity pull it down. 

"Its beautiful out here."

"My mom used to get me here when we'd wanna have time alone and we'd be here with a basket full of my favorite choclates and snankes with the picnik cloth, mom and i be runnigna round and playing. We'd always be here to see the sunset and it would be quite. i fall asleep and it would just be peacful." 

Xey looked at me gave me his usual warming smile and this really huge bear hug and he said, "It's special to you just the it is to me now, Thank you for being the only special friend i have. Its gonna be hard not seeing you on the daily, im gonna miss you so much."

I was more than anything above it.. i was speechless and it was so bad for me to let this happen. But that's just how life goes and i think i should be strong enough to let this go. i was stunned and i had so much to say but the words never made it through and i think xey just waited there hoping for an answer. He tried and then, he said, "Wanna grab ice-cream."

"Pffht. when would i say no?"