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<3 to <3 two

My alarm gets me up. Usually I grown sware do something. Today I smile and look at the sky. I get on a red dress to match my ring.

I run down the stares and wait by the window for Jake.

Its been 5 minutes not here.

He's 10 minutes late

He's 20 minutes late

I am going to call his mom.

Hello, Is Jake still there he didn't show up to pick me up. I said into the reciever. I am pretty sure she noise who I am.

No he left about 25 minutes ago. Theres probably a lot of traffic he should be there in a minute. This didn't seem right but I went along with it for her sake. I got out of the house and started to trrace my way the mile and half to Jake's.

I stare at my feet as I walk. Step, step, step, step. One two three four. Step stepp stepp step.

I look up to the sound of comotion. I see police tape and a smashed car. Already a crowed is gathered around the area.

The car is a red conbertable. Must be a conviciance. It cant be him.

I see a body being pulled out of the wreck.

I scream.

I fall into a heep.

I die on the inside.

The cops come over to me and help me up.

I probably new them but I can not see anymore.

Too many tears.

What feels like hours is seconds.

I am numb.

I am put in a car.

I don't care.

People are talking to me but I don't listen.

Some times I pick up on what they are saying and answer.

Who was the victum? Victum. The word hurts.

Jake. Jake Truman.

What was your relationship to the vitum? Again with that word.

He was my fianse. He proposed last night. I sobbed.

That was when the world collapsed on me.

I was taken to the police station.

I sat in a chair.

I saw his parents and cried more.

My parents came.

I sat there till 12.

Then my dad asked if I could go back to school.

I hate my dad.

They said I could leave.

He took me to school.

I got out of the car and walked into the building with my pass.

I think the school knows. They look at me with sorrow.

The student body doesn't know.

Nor do the teachers.

They ask why I am crying.

I will not answer.

I sit in the back.

I don't see Anna.

We only have last period together.

Its only been five minutes.

I look at the clock with disbelief.

When they say you can't make time move faster by looking at the clock, they are right.

But I try anyway.

My nails are going into my skin.

I barely notice, for I am numb.

I start to bleed.

I bleed somemore.

Eventually I am asked to go the the nurse.

Because it drips on the floor.

I get there and get a bandaid.

The nurse asks me if I want to lay down.

I say no.

I sit there.

Eventually it is lunch.

I sit with Anna.

She asks me what is wrong.

I can not say the words.

She takes me to the bathroom.

We check the stalls and lock the door.

She asks me again.

I sob.

I still can not say it.

If I do not acknowledge it it is not real.

She forces me to say it.

He's dead I choke out.

Who is? She asks.

Jake I whispered.

He proposed. Last night. We were going to be happy I sob.

She takes me in her arms. I can barely feel it. I am numb.

We go back to lunch.

I get strange looks.

After they call an asembly.

They say what happened.

They show pictures of him.

Of us.

I look at my ring.

I can never be happy again.

Never

Never

Never I find out Im saying it outloud.

I look like a freak.

Anna takes me out of there.

We wait, in silence, in our empty classroom.

Hes not the only one who is dead.

So am I.