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The kids file into the room.

I am stared at.

I hear I'm sorry.

I cry, so Anna takes me in her arms.

I wish that Rose never moved away.

I wish she had never graduated

I wish that Jake was still alive.

or

I wish that I was dead with him.

I sobb.

This day will never end.

But being at school is better than being at home.

I realize that other people are crying too.

That doesn't make since. The only people that he actually liked was me, Anna, Charlie and Rose.

I take out my ipad.

I see that last night I was sent one more message from him,

"I love you, see you tomorrow mourning, goodnight."

I scream again.

Anna hugs me.

I reread his proposal.

I run out of the class room.

I run down the hall.

I run into the street.

I run into the forest.

I run to our stop on the cliff.

I collaspe onto the warm ground.

Anna sits next to me.

She puts her arm around me and rocks me back and forth.

I can't believe I will never see him again I whisper.

I know but it will get better She says. It seems to loud. I cry.

No it will never get better. We were going to get married She cries with me.

I know I know I know It is still to loud.

I think about jumping off the cliff.

I think about popping pills.

I think about cutting.

Will you take me home? She knows that I mean that she will saty and sleep over.

She nods and gets up. I take her hand and she helps me up.

I get into her car. Its old looking compared to his.

I cry again.

He is dead.

HE is DEAD.

he IS dead

I will never see him again.

I will never kiss him again.

I will never hug him again.

I will never get married.

I will never have kids.

I will die a lonely death. I realize that I have been talking out loud.

Anna doesn't say anything.

Maybe she beilieves it too.

I get home and we walk inside.

There are flowers and food laying around.

His parents and brother are there.

I have no right to be sad compaired to them.