Don't Judge Me For Who I Am

To my Mother and others

I know I haven't writen that much loves...but my life wasn't really something I wanted to share at that moment. But now I'm happy to say I shall keep writing because this book is like my dairy and my thought book..

I just wanted to say you guys need to be thankful for the things around you because. There are some people out there who would die to live in our lives. But yet we stay foolish and play with our lives, heart and others lives and hearts.

We are humans not robots we can't be perfect I know that. But that doesn't mean we can't try to make our world nice and peaceful. Oh and be thankful for the people in your life Your mom, dad, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, friends.

Because when they leave you'll be begging to hug them 1 more time to tell them how much you missed them. You'd miss them and hate yourself for not doing that or saying that.

And this song just got me typing the most reason why I am writing this is cause of my mom. I never hugged her or kissed her goodnight and you know what every God damn day I regret it.

Not doing all the things I was supposed to do. Because now I feel empty with nobody giving me love cause when they did I didn't give them love back. I was greedy I took all the love they gave me and didn't give them any.

I regret not sleeping with my mom on the night we had to leave. I regret not kissing her before I left. I was sooo naive and foolish back then funny thing is she always told me.

"How come you never kiss me anymore maya, you don't know maybe one day I'll be gone and you'll regret it" I was soo stupid. I should have listened to her I just shrugged it off knowing NO wait thinking.

I was gonna be with her and I had all the time in the world. If I knew what I knew now I would kiss her....hug her....tell her how much I miss her even tho she's been gone for 10 seconds....buy her flowers....always remind her how beautiful she is.

I would give all I have and the whole world just to do that to her and tell her that...I wrote something for her ...
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To my angel...My mother

Lost in my thoughts....of you I close my eyes and I see you.... moving your body elegantly and gracefully.....you haunt my dreams....your beauty shines bright like a diamond............every single part of your body so beautiful and so precious....... I can be your hero baby....I can hug away the pain....I will stand by you forever...a promise I shall keep even tho I have broken many I shall never break this one.....I can be your baby girl....you can be my queen....I close my eyes and I see you...whispering and laughing...smiling like nothing is wrong that's what I love about you amour you.....you....you know how to brighten up a day even tho it was super horrible I can be your hero baby...I regret not being there for you princess but now that I know I was wrong and you were always right I wanted to tell you I...

I love you I miss you I am crazy about you your the one for me...mom I need you more then ever I might not act like it but I do and I needed you to know this just in case 1 day I do something wrong you'll know I loved you....I always feel like dying for treating you the way I did angel...

I was so blind because allah sent me an angel and I just looked past it..and now I know and I know I'm late on telling you this I just I need you to know this now better then never.....I hope you can forgive me for being the most worst daughter ever mom...

I can't stop thinking about you...your funny and silly laugh....your carefree smile...the twinkle in your eye when you haha get ready for a party haha....I miss you...I miss the way you'd be clumsy sometimes...I miss the way your hair goes wild when you come out of the shower...I miss those beautiful green eyes

I miss your warm body and I miss your singing...haha I miss the way you yelled at me....I miss the way when you yell at me you always end up changing your voice to a gangster voice and always point your finger....

And I hope you get better then anything cause you deserve it more then anyone mom....don't forget I love you....even if I'm tooo stubborn or foolish or naive to tell you it everyday like how I am supposed to be telling you..

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That don't even match the amount I love you........

I love ya princess

One day you'll meet your king and become a queen and shine....but for tonight your my princess and mines only 😏😏 and if you have a problem with that then deal with it..

Haha I love you mom.
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Its The truth so you guys please remember to always tell your mother you love her and your family and friends. You'll end up regretting it if you dont.....I did 😔😔😞😞