Lies {a Marina and the Diamonds/ Loki from "Thor" fanfic}

I'm Vulnerable

Marina's POV

Chapter 2

I tugged on my black coat pulling it closer against the chill. It was really cold today, I noticed. Frosty. My orders were quickly executed today, if you will pardon the pun. I thought of all the room the empty prisons would give me. I sighed happily.

"You've been acting awful tough lately," I sang, opening the door to the entrance of the castle and stepping outside. No one was out there like I had ordered. "Smokin' a lot of cigarettes lately," I continued, walking down the steps. I walked over to the cherry blossom trees, placing my palm into the cool bark.

"But inside, you're just a little baby, oh."

I sighed. Maybe inside of mourning I should've had a big feast in remembrance of our "great" king. But then I'd seem too cheerful for his death. Cheery as the beautiful, ignorant cherry blossom trees. Couldn't have that. I didn't feel like singing anymore. Something uneasy settled in my stomach. Was this guilt? For killing him? But why would I feel guilt, I wanted him to die. I reached up and broke off a cherry blossom twig. I smelled it, closing my eyes. I opened my eyes slowly, looking at the blossom. For a moment I studied it, watching it's pink petals turn to blood red. I blinked and it was it's normal color. "What?" I murmured, dropping the blossom and the twig in surprise. I pulled my coat closer again, and walked back inside. This was all too boring. I need some fun.

I grinned, and pulled the dagger out of my coat pocket.

Time for some fun.

Loki's P.O.V.

It was done. I was finally king, just as I should have a long time again. Odin was dead. After Laufey killed him, I killed Laufey. Thor had come to late, and now would be in my clutches. At least I was content.

But why does my heart ache so..

All my life I wanted to please Father. But I didn't, I couldn't, with Thor around. I've always been his shadow. Now it was time to conquer Thor. Let him be the shadow at my feet. Odin would never accept me now. But I didn't care anymore. He was nothing to me now, like I was to him.

The thought of Thor kneeling for me filled me with such delight. I must make him kneel at least once before I kill him..

I grabbed my spear and quickly strode outside the castle. Thor was there, panting, like he'd been rushing over. Well, of course he'd be. His father's life was in danger.. not that he knew he was too late.

"Brother, where is Odin?"He demanded, raising Mjolnoir as if he was going to bash me. "I am not your brother, I never was." I growled. Looking at his hammer, I grinned,"Give me Mjolnoir and I'll tell you where father is." Thor narrowed his eyes at him,"Loki, you are not strong enough for it.."

I ground my teeth," Fine." I yelled over two Jotuns who were on my side who came out after me. I nodded to the Mjolnoir and they went over to Thor, who reluctantly let them take it. They strained as they carried it inside. I turned back to Thor, and grinned mischievously,"Ready to see Odin?"

He nodded and strode ahead of me much to my disappointment. Even now, he acted like he was better than me. Frustration built inside me. I shall show him. We went inside and headed towards Odin's chambers.

"Broth- Thor,stop. I will show you, not you me." I said angrily. He drew his eyebrows together angrily and gestured for me to walk in front of me. I could tell he was getting anxious. I smiled and walked ahead of him in the same direction was going, to Odin's chambers. I paused at the door of the room he lay in, biting my lip, feeling a bit of guilt fill up in me. I held back tears. I stared at the ground, remember why you did this, Loki. Even as a kid he didn't care about you.. It was worth it.. Remember?..

It was summer in the heat and Thor and I were racing through the castle playing. Thor laughed, tossing his golden locks and smiling brightly at me. I smiled shyly back and ran faster than him . We rounded a corner when he stumbled into me from behind, trying to stop. It wasn't until the big vase tumbled onto me and broke I realized why. My eyes watered up as I heard Odin yell across from another room. Thor looked at me with sympathy. I was going to be whipped for this for sure, accident or not. When Odin stormed in, he yelled,"Who did this to Frigga's beautiful vase?!LOKI??!"

I had cowered, about to cry out that it was an accident, while I looked at my father's livid face, when Thor replied bravely,"No Father, I did it."

"Thor?" Odin said softly, his gaze softening too. He hugged Thor tightly, "Oh, well.. It's okay, my boy.. here..Loki, clean it up. Thor are you hurt?"

I stared, open-mouthed as Thor cuddled into father's embrace,"A little. One shard pricked me. But it's okay, dad. I'm brave like you. I am tough!" Jealously and hurt washed through me as Odin picked him and pointed angrily at the mess for me to clean up. I cried that night to sleep.

"Loki?!!"Thor yelled, stirring me from my flashback.

"Oh. Oh yeah." I wiped the tears that had fell down my cheeks and laughed angrily. "Ok brother, here is 'Father'. " I unlocked the door with key I had in my sleeve, and pushed the door open. Thor walked quickly into the room,"Odin? Father?' He called, waiting for an answer. "Idiot," I muttered wickedly. I went out into the hall real quick, gesturing two guards forward to the door,"He will be angry real soon so be ready to bring him to the prison cells.. Alright?" They nodded, chains in their hands. I strode quickly into the room again, as Thor hurriedly walked around the room. "Where is HE??!" He yelled.

I shook my head and went over to wear Odin's bed was, which had long black curtains around, and opened the curtains quickly, and stepped back, spear in hands, ready. Thor widened his eyes, looking at me wildly, not daring to approach the bed,"Did-did.. he fall into Odinsleep again?"

My voice broke, even though i kept my grin,"You could say that, Thor. Go see, dear brother... Go see." Thor didn't hesitate this time. He was over there in flash. Like lightning. "NO!!" He yelled as he saw Odin and even I had to look at it to make sure Odin wasn't still breathing. No, he wasn't . I looked upon his bloody face and scarred body. Laufey was not merciful as he murdered him. My stomach dropped, I let him.. But then again why did I care? I watched Thor choke on sobs. I was fascinated.. never had I saw my brother fully immersed in such emotion. His sobs were a strange melody to me. I restrained the urge to comfort, to tell him it's alright. But this is what I wanted. I wanted to see Thor suffer like I did. I smiled through the bad feelings pooling in my stomach and nodded to the guards who grabbed him. He was weak in his broken state. He screamed at me as he was dragged away,"WHY?! WHY LOKI?!" He repeated over and over, louder and louder. I turned away as he left and sat in front of father. I let slow tears drip out of me.