Death Clock

Cryptomnesia

DÉJÀ VU

Tina and I were about to have dinner, I accidentaly dropped the glass I'm holding. Lumambot kasi ang pagkakahawak ko dito, and I didn't noticed I accidentaly slip it. "Sorry Tina.", I apologize tapos lumuhod ako to pick up the broken glasses that was turned into pieces. Tina did the same then she looked at me, it took about 30 seconds. Tapos dun na kami tumayo. Seeing Tina like that feels different. May pagka poker face siya, at matalas ang tingin sa akin.

Tina hurriedly setup the DVD player right after we have dinner. Medyo may pagka thriller-suspense yung napili niyang movie. Hindi naman ako matatakutin kaya I agreed on watching the film she wants. 

We were sitting on the couch at medyo nasa kalagitnaan na yung pinapanood naming movie. I heard footsteps malapit dun sa may grand staircase nila Tina. Sa pagkakaalam ko, kaming dalawa lang ang tao dito ang we weren't expecting for 'unexpected guests' to visit us by this hour.

Itinuon ko ang pansin ko sa panonood. But the sound of it makes me sick. Yung tunog na bawat tapak nung heel niya, naririnig mo yung sapatos niyang unti unting bumabagsak sa sahig. Papalakas ng papalakas iyon, it was almost like the sound of my beating heart, walang tigil at sobrang bilis. Napapikit ako ng marahan at mahigpit at parang tila nakaramdam ako na parang nangyari na sa akin ito noon. Lalong lumakas ang tunog, at nararamdaman kong papalapit ng papalapit iyon sakin. I screamed to death at nagtakip pa ako ng unan sa sobrang takot ko.

Then it stopped. Tina raised her eyebrows at tinignan ako na bakas ang pagtataka sa mukha niya. "Hey! Since when did you got scared in this kind of film? Nauna ka pang tumili sa akin ah. Weird.", she uttered. Tama siya, I was never scared. I placed my hand inside my pocket, and there, nakapa ko yung necklace na binigay nung matanda kanina. I remembered she said that I own this necklace. Pretty weird. And it's really getting weirder habang tumatagal.

Could it be that I am Claire Romanov in my previous life? Kung ako nga siya, why does her past keeps on haunting me? Hindi ba't tapos na ang buhay niya and I have to live mine? What is she trying to tell me? Kung ano man yun, natatakot ako. At kung ako siya, hindi ko alam kung paano ko haharapin ang multo ng nakaraan kung mismong ako, hindi handa para maalala ko lahat yun.

The movie ended and we already went upstairs para magready na for bed. Nagpalinga linga ako upang hanapin kung ano yung narinig ko kanina pero inalis ko din kaagad sa isip ko yun dahil ayoko ng takutin ang sarili ko. Pumasok na kami sa kuwarto ni Tina and I headed towards the bathroom. Naghilamos ako at hindi ko makalimutan yung thought about Claire. Pag angat ko ng ulo ko, I was terried seeing a blurry vision of a woman, sa salamin! Kung tititigan mo yung image na yun, you could see clearly na nanlilisik ang mga mata niya at para niya akong papatayin sa mga tingin na yun, seeing that kind of phenomena makes me feel stiff and shaking.

Nawala yung image when Tina was standing at my back.

"Nakita mo yun?", I asked her.

"Nakita ang alin?", sagot niya sakin.

"Uhh, nothing. Never mind sis. Matulog na tayo.", I calmly said.

Hindi ko na kinuwento pa kay Tina kung ano ang nakita ko. Ayoko namang mag-alala pa yung best friend ko at nerbyusin sa sobrang takot.

Nagkukwento pa si Tina ng makatulugan ko yun. I fell into a deep sleep at parang lumulutang ako.

Everything feels so different.

I was walking alone in the dark, it was so cold and I can feel that cold breeze gently touching my cheeks.

I was walking without any idea where to go.

I stopped when I felt somebody held my arms.

It was all tender and soft.

I slowly looked behind and I surprisingly, I saw this beautiful lady. Wearing this cream long dress and peacefully looking at me.

"Clarissa...

Clarissa...", she was calling out my name and as she keeps on doing it, tears gently fall from her eyes.

She ran opposite of my direction and I started to come after her. She was weeping, I tapped her shoulders, then looked at me and she was covered with blood. She took my wrist then take a hard grip on me. I tried to push her away but she was so strong, suddenly, her sweet and lovely voice was changed into a horrifying screams. Screaming my name, and screaming for help. I tried to catch for my breath...

Slowly...

slowly...

I woke up and Tina's wall clock caught my attention. Tinitigan ko yun ng mabuti at kinilabutan ako.

It was moving backward. Then thunder struck from the outside, it was raining so hard. narinig ko ulit yung footstep kanina galing sa grand staircase. Palakas ng palakas yun.

Humiga ako ulit and I closed my eyes and closed my fists too. Takot na takot ako. I was crying so hard and I can feel a hard breathing above me. She's screaming my name. Screaming and I could hardly move. I kept my eyes closed.

Inisip kong gusto ko ng matapos lahat ng ito. Naisip kong gusto ko ng matuldukan lahat ng mga takot ko. I wholeheartedly whispered to myself na aalamin ko ang nangyari sa buhay ni Clairev Romanov. Ang nangyari sa akin noong nakaraang buhay ko. Kung bakit patuloy na hindi matahimik ang multo ng nakaraan ko. Then I prayed.

Unti unting humina at huminto yung mga footsteps at naramdaman kong wala na ang malalim na paghinga na nararamdaman ko galing sa ibabaw ko. Napanatag na ang kalooban ko kaya unti unti, nakagawa na muli ako ng tulog.

Gagawin ko ito para kay Claire. Higit sa lahat, para sakin.

Dahil ako, si Clarissa Joaquin ay si Claire Romanov.