Stoneheart

Truth Tea

Its time for me to sip the truth tea,
The truth is hard for some to swallow,
But its necessary to change belief,
Its necessary to change and breathe.
Iron out the knots, and soften every crease,
In the way I think, In the way I see.
People who I always thought were my worst enemy.

I judge so easily people,
I cannot know fully,
On a level not worthy of judgement.
I judge and will be judged,
For the things I accused them of.

I've done things I'm not proud of either,
Lacking trust and being a believer,
That people should always prove true.
That people should always pull through,
When I had not pulled through myself,
Coming off cold with frigidity,
Staying inside upon my shelf,
Closing my doors and limiting,
The time I spent getting to know,
The people I feared and loathed the most.

If familiarity breeds love,
Then distance breeds my enmity.
Then distance is the thing I fear,
Not people who I thought were marked,
As narrow minded, only here,
To feed their popularity.
I sneered and I resented
The shallowness and vanity.
The empty smiles, calamity,
To me because I mistook,
Peers with my fallacy
As bullets aimed, lines hooked
Corrupting me with apathy. 

The truth tea is not easy,
For many of us to take,
Time to sip it down,
Everyone has elements,
Of arrogance and hate.

But I'm asking now please, forgive me
For my impertinence, my trait,
My undue judgement,
Disallowing me the time to wait,
And see how people will turn out,
Instead of basing judgements on
Their current defunct state.
Of disinterest, advoidance, pretention and all their fake,
Attitudes that come off blunt,
That always seem to taint,
My friendships and allegiances,
I read too deeply,
Feel to strongly,
Hurt too freely,
Tend to correlate,
Peoples percieved apathy,
As inadequacy and fate.

Its time for me to analyse the reasons,
Why I shouldn't think,
That people dislike me today,
And why I always need,
To flee from everyone who just happens to be,
Disinclined to be closer than an aquaintance to me.

Its time for me to sip the tea.
Popularity's not worth,
Money doesn't equal fun,
People always feel their worst,
When they are down,
In depths themselves,
It doesn't mean they want to shun,
Or ignore, they are not compelled,
To owe you anything at all,
Don't expect them to open up,
Don't expect people just to fall,
Down at your feet or line up,
For it takes two to make it work,
In any friendship there are snubs.

The wealthy ones might have to learn,
The hardest way and they could scrub,
The floors but they might never learn.
And I should not be worried much,
About peoples business, should vouch,
For them instead of picking out,
Their flaws and calling them out.

Its time to bury down the doubt,
Whether people value me,
Validation comes through effort,
Its time to sip the truth tea.

And heres a fact for all to see,
And this will end it beautifully,

Death is the great equalizer,
Nobody is better off,
And nobodies the wiser,
For having lots of friends,
Or having sympathizers.

You cannot take it with you,
Whatever that may be.
And the ones with more to lose,
Will be saddest when they leave.

So theres no need to envy you,
Pity is all you need,
Pity that inequality,
Was so gently appeased.