The Closet Butterfly

FAST FORWARD

As I continued going to school and getting an "education" days become weeks, and weeks become months. I have been attending this hell hole of a highschool for almost three months now and I can just barely get to the end of a day without having a panic attack. Emily has been practically glued to my side all day everyday, making it extremely hard for me to even go to the bathroom, let alone make any friends or even study between classes. She isn't all bad, I've actually grown somewhat attached to her. While she doesn't leave me alone she doesn't give anyone a chance to bully me. Which means they also don't get the change to even say "Hi" hardly.

The only other people she lets around me are Jason and his dad Mr. Larson. Jason is ..okay..I guess. I've purposely been keeping my distance from him. He isn't a bad person as far as I can tell, he is actually very nice, but I'm afraid if I get to close to him rumors will start. The last thing I need is everyone calling me a gay, faggot lord, king of rainbow underpants, or some other crazy shit. Truthfully I'm not even sure if they would. Emily told me that Jason is actually gay and everyone knows about it, even his dad and all he other teachers. He doesn't hide it or deny it in anyway, and apparently everyone is just cool with it. I assume its because he is captain of our football team. I'm not really into sports but whenever Jason has practice Emily forces me to go and we watch him play.

One afternoon at Jason's practice it started raining really bad, and practice was called off. Jason took off his jacket and held it over mine and Emily's heads to keep us from getting wet. It was really sweet and from that moment I knew I had a crush on him. So that's when I started to try and distance myself from him, but Emily won't let me. For a girl half my side she sure does scare the crap out of me, she even scares Jason and he is bigger than I am! Maybe it's a woman thing, I think all woman are naturally scary.
Now I'm sitting in the cafeteria surprisingly by myself. I'm genuinely worried and freaked out a little bit. The entire time I've been going to this school I have never had to sit by myself. Now that I'm alone I don't like is as much as I used to, I'm actually missing the nonsense chatter of Emily and Jason. I look down at my tray of food and poke the gross school lunch with a scrunched up nose. I learned rather quickly that as long as I hate a plate of food Emily and Jason didn't worry about me getting any food. It's really weird to me but I guess I should be glad to have friends at all. Huh...I never thought I would say that. I have friends.

"Hey Damian!"

I snap up towards the sound of the male voice and see Jason standing in the door way. While I still didn't like it I'm getting used to Jason and Emily both causing attention to themselves. When they draw attention to themselves they normally draw it to me as well. I slump down in my seat hoping the eyes stuck to me will go away as Jason literally runs over to the table.

"Lets get high and fuck!" He says excitedly as he sits down across from me.

My eyes widen in shock as he digs around in his backpack. Thankfully no one else appears to have heard that remark of his. He looks up from his back pack and sees the expression I have. To my surpirse he starts laughing, holding his side in funny pains.

"Lighten up I'm just joking!" He says seriously once he notices that I didn't find his little remark as funny as he did.

"That's not funny." I say softly rubbing my own arm unsure what to do. Jason and I hadn't even been alone before, and the first time we are isn't leaving a good impression in my mind.

"I'm sorry. He states sincerely. "But I do have some news!"

"Do share." I say quietly looking up at him.

"I'm throwing a party tonight, and I want you to come." He says taking his own fork and taking some of my food. My race burns a bright red. "Did he really just say he wants me at his party while he eats my food? No this cannot happen people will say things." My blood rushing away from my head making me light headed as I think about what's happening. "Quick say something idiot." My concious snaps.

" Are your parents okay with this?" I mentally slap myself. "Really Damian that's what you come up with? Way to sound like an adult!" I mentally growl at myself.

"In a way yes! See, my folks are leaving town this weekend and they told me not to throw a party...well any normal teenager would throw a party...and they know I'm going to anyway, so they bought like a tone of nonalcoholic beer and a tone of party stuff. They even put some stuff in storage so It won't get broken." He explains taking another bite of my food.

"Wow, your parents are-"

"Cool I know!" He says cutting me off with a smile. Before either one of us can say anything else Emily suddenly appears out of nowhere making me jump a couple inches off my seat. She and Jason look at me funny as a terrified expression is glued to my face. I slump back into my seat trying to act like that didn't just scare the piss out of me as Emily sits down next to Jason.

"So did you tell him yet? Is he coming?" She asks looking at Jason before turning and looking at me. "You are coming to the party tonight right?" Panic washes over me and I just stare at her before looking over at Jason for help.
"Well are you coming?" He asks as they both now stare at me waiting for an answer. The pressure is on, this is the peer pressure mother warned me about! I cant think with them staring at me like that. A lump forms in my throat, my heart races and I'm sure I'm already sweating like a pig. "Sure." I manage to force out in a squeak. I expected the two to pick at me for my prepubescent squeak but they don't. They high five each other and do victory arm pumps and weird little dances in their seats. Why am I dreading this party idea already?

By the time school is over nearly every student has heard about this party and I've lost count of how many people said they would show up. Jason had told me there would be fake beer, but he told everyone else it was real. I guess that was a pretty cool thing for his parents to do. Now I'm sitting in the middle of my last class waiting until the traffic dies down before I attempt to leave. But like always things never go as I plan them. I look up seeing Emily standing in front of my desk. "Come on silly we have to get ready for Jason's party." She chirps as she grabs my wrist and pulls me out my seat and drags me out the school. As she drags me out the school many students see us and laugh I can hear a few girls saying "Poor kid" and "I feel bad for him" Emily bursts through the schools main doors and drags me over to her car, where she opens the door and stuffs me inside like police officers do.

She quickly rushes over to her side and before I know it we are driving. It doesn't take long and soon we are at my house. Emily only knew where I lived because she and Jason got into a fight over who got to pick me up and take me home every school day. They eventually agreed to take turns despite me saying that I loved walking. Next thing I know we arrive at my house and thankfully my parents aren't home yet. Emily hadn't met my parents yet and neither had Jason. It's only fair, I hadn't met any of their parents yet.
Well, except for Mr. Larson but he doesn't count.

Emily rushes me out the car and I quickly go inside hoping not to make her mad. Once we are inside she closes the door, glances around the room, then looks at me. "Is anyone here besides us?" She asks calmly.

"No, my parents are at work. They won't be back till around nine thirty most likely." I say simply shrugging my shoulders. With out saying another word Emily walks over now standing right in front of me. My cheeks burning red as I can feel her breath hitting my chest. With what felt like a split second Emily unbuttons my pants and pulls them down to rest around my ankles.

"EMILY!" I yell burning a deep red." WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I question as she squats down, her face now inches away from my private area. I feel the blood rushing away from my head, oh dear I'm going to faint. But before I can actually pass out I hear chuckle.

"Rainbows?" She questions regarding the color of my boxers.

"I'm king of the rainbow underpants." I ask shrugging my shoulders.

"Well they do look pretty." She says standing back up. "But it doesn't smell that good. Go take a shower." She says pointing to the kitchen.

"The shower isn't that way." I say swinging my arms back and forth hoping she won't beat me. Emily glares at me and opens her mouth to speak. Just before she get any words out I quickly cut her off "Yes ma'am!" I don't take the time to pull my pants up I instead swiftly kick them off my ankles and run up the stairs towards the bathroom. Guess I need to get ready now.