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My coming out as gender fluid story

Warning horror story. Also names are changed because i did not know if people wanted themselves known by the interweb, the people can figure their selves out the names are names i wanted to pick but didn't

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So well I was on Youtube watching short films and i stumbled apon Ruby Rose's Break Free ( can i just take a moment to say they are fucking hot as hell and just like yasss) that's how I the cringe i am found out what it was but this gets worse. TRIGGER WARNING I went on Tumblr and was looking at lgbtq+ blogs. I found one with a bunch of genders and sexualities I didn't even know existed. I kept on looking into genderfluidity and stuff and was doing some really deep thinking of when i was younger and the way i acted it wasn't because it was fun it was because that's how i thought how i was supposed to be and act i never really enjoyed being super feminine but gender roles were really inforced when i was younger. I can remember wanting to be like my brothers some days , wanting to be strong always doing the dangerous stuff then other days  I wanted to play with my stuffed animals and dolls. i remember "loving dresses and pink and glitter" (fuck glitter btw). When i was in school my friends were doing a baby project so I was helping them pick some names out for it and I stumbled apon Avery i liked it it was cute and gender neutral so i kept it i called my self it for months before coming out to some of my closest friends i was out to my self almost a year ago i remember always putting my hair up in beanies and wanting it gone i spent hours in my room saying to myself you cant come out to your family they might kick you out and never talk to you again. my friends slipped up a few times but they took it and were fine about it. Then here is where it gets bad. My sister came out as bi and my family was pissed about it I couldn't live with my self if I left her alone with that so I came out as genderfluid in a car ride with my aunt going to her house( I regret that moment so much like there is a thousand things i rather do than that ever) I explained using  the simplest way i could but all she said was so your a boy then after that when my dad eventually found out like a day later my sister texted me in math class saying that my dad said if i ever bring a pride flag in my house he would shoot me and my sister if she did the same. When I got to my aunts house I was feeling masculine that day so i was just reading doing homework and my aunt came in and started screaming at me stop trying to be a boy you are not youre a beautiful little girl I was trying to ignore it but eventually after two hours of that bs i snapped and i was crying. I said thats who you know me as i was trying to fit in but i never could im sorry and now we dont ever talk that ruined the relationship and my little cousins are like my brothers so i never see them. As for school i get called a faggot almost every week and when you just start a new grade you have to explain it all over until you legally change your name. This has been a hell of a year it had its ups and downs but thats life and its hard but c'est la vie.