RINGGG RINGG RING I hear my phone ringing "hello" I say
"Where are you its 8:00" Derrick asks me
"Sorry I actually went to sleep last night" i say
"Okay well get here as soon as you can" he says
"Okay love you bye" I say
"Love you too babe bye" he says. So I get up and it takes me about 15 minutes to get ready."mom can you take me to school" I hollered to her
"Why didn't you get on the bus" she yells at me
" I don't know" I say. We head out to the car and she yells at me the whole hour it takes to get to school. When we arrive it is time to go to choir and when I get to class I look for Bri. When I see her I see that she is crying. She looks up and stops. I walk over "whats wrong." I ask
"I thought you killed you're self" she says
"Why would you think that" I ask
"You did not answer any of my calls or texts" she says. I check my phone to see 6 missed cakes and 107 text messages."sorry I actually went to sleep last night" I say
"No way,you know what that is" she says
"Yeah I hate it" I say
"But why" she asks
"Because it takes me to my thoughts and that is a place I never want to go again" I say
"Okay..." She says with a question tone. The teacher is not here again so we watch a movie and of course I forgot my ear buds. So I had to hear Bri talk, its not that I don't like her its just I really want to listen to some TØP right now and a little bit of MCR. During lunch Derrick asks me " can I come over tonight my parents are leaving town "
"Yeah my moms picking me up anyway" I say
"So will I be able to stay all night" he asks
"Yep" I say
"Okay good" he says
"Okay see you then" I say
"Okay love you bye" he says and we go to our next classes. The rest of the day feels like forever. But when my mom picks Derrick and I up from school we head home. When we head him he and I head up to my room to do our home work. "Do you eat dinner" I ask
"No" he says
"Okay thats good cause I don't either" I say. So the night just flies away. And after we've both had showers we get in bed, that's a lie we make out on the bed. Things start to escalate. We start to get all touchy feely if you know what I mean. But then when he start to un-button my pajama pants I move away. "Sorry" he says
"No its my fault" I say
"STOP" he says at me
"Okay fine" I say
"Okay let's sleep" he says. So we get under the covers and he falls asleep at about 1:00 am. I stay upon all night just staring at my handsome boyfriend. What did I do to deserve this person,I'm a shitty person and he is so handsome and kind and carding,he deserves better.
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Suicidal
RandomA teen girl is going through a high case of depression. She fells every part of her life that is bad is because of her,their not. In this book I do not promote suicide/self hemming but if you are going through these thoughts hang in there I went and...
