Chapt 4.
-Brian's pov-
I left at a short time after Eve went to serve another table. I took the bus to my house and of course, a boy came at me and asked me for an autograph. I love meeting my fans. Sometimes I feel they think I'm some kind of a bad guy, that doesnt really gives a shit about them, but I really admire them. They make me smile. So I stood like 10 minutes and talked with the guy which name was David and I felt a lot better. I told him that I want us to meet again and he smiled brightly and made me forget for a second what happened with me and Zacky. He left and I entered my house. I changed myself in more casual clothes and then I got a message from Arin: 'Hi dude. Are you alright? Why didn't you come to the studio? Zacky seemed pretty beat up and we thought you 2 argued..please respond asap. >:D<'
I love when Arin puts emoticons. He makes me better. I dont understand why he gets that much hate. Some people just want to see you suffer...Well..guess what? I'm gonna make them suffer. This hell they put me in..I'm underneath their skin...like a devil..the devil within..
"Uhh? That'll be a good song.Maybe me and Eve can sing it..with her voice and me..playing the piano.." I told myself.
So I started writing the song.
"But I craft into your heart
You wont make me dissapear
Till I make you..."
"I'm learing all your tricks
I can hurt you from inside
I made myself a promise
You wont ever see me cry
Till I make you.."
But suddenly my phone started ringing. It was Arin. This little guy seems to be the only one who cares about me.
"Hello?" I answered.
"Brian, we are worried." Matt told me. I heard Johnny in the backround "Man, we have to talk to him face to face." "Brian, we are coming to your house right now." Matt said convinced.
"Ughh...ermm..alright. Bye." I told them. So, they all cared about me. I heard everybody there, except for Zacky...which really broke my heart again. I continued writing:
"I tried to be the lover to your nightmare
Look what you made of me!
Now I'm the heavy burn that you cant bear
Look what you made of me!
Look what you made of me!
I'll make you see..."
I wrote that with tears in my eyes thinking about my Zacky that doesnt love me even a bit. All these years I waited for him, wanting him to love me , to figure out that I'm his soul-mate, that we are made for each other...but right now I think he thinks that I'm just a freak and hates me for being gay. I feel soo horrible. I love him soo much is not even funny. And when everything was worse , cause I cried like a baby and my voice was shaky, I got a call from a person I can truly say I love more than Zacky, my younger sister McKenna...
