Kageyama X Reader - Silence [A N G S T]

Silence (Angst / Breakup)

Me : Tobio, is something wrong? Is it something I did?
Tobiooo <3 : No.
Me : Then?
Tobiooo <3 : Nothing. I just don't feel like talking anymore.
Me : Oh... Bye. I'll call you later.
~behind the phone~
'Maybe he was just in a bad mood. Yeah. I'll give him a few days to himself.'
3 days passed and nothing. No calls or texts. Just plain void from incoming notifications.
Me : Hey. It took me alot of courage to ask you this, but do        
you still want to continue our relationship?
Anxiously, I waited for a reply, making sure my parents don't find out what just happened since they really liked Tobio as my boyfriend and basically acknowledged him as their son-in-law.
~bzzz~
Tobiooo <3 : Do you want it to continue?
Me : Of course.
Tobiooo <3 : Give me time to think.
~behind the phone~
Fingers crossed, I set my phone down and joined my parents for dinner before hearing my phone vibrate. Quickly, I finished the contents on my plate and excused myself to my room.
Tobiooo <3 : I don't. I'm sorry.
Me : May I know why?
Tobiooo <3 : I lost feelings for you.
Me : Is there a reason?
Tobiooo <3 : I don't know. It's a sudden feeling.
Me : Tobio, I still love you. I love you alot.
Tobiooo <3 : That's very nice of you. Thank you.
Me : And how nice is it of you to make me head over heels for you then leave me in the lurch.
Tobiooo <3 : I'm sorry. I hope we can still be friends and maintain the friendship that we had before. It was fun spending 2 years with you constantly by my side. Thank you for the memories, goodbye (Name).
~behind the phone~
Clutching the phone closely to my chest as my heart ached, replaying the events that just happened. Tears were flowing down from both my eyes at an uncontrollable rate, sobs and hiccups that followed one another echoed around the room. "Yeah... Goodbye Kageyama..." I whispered, subconsciously crying myself to sleep.

Going through everyday was torturous, not only was I crying on a regular basis, it didn't help that we were in the same class for all our subjects. By then, the whole class already knew what happened and either comforted me or left me be, which was fine either way. Not that it mattered anyway. While Kageyama's laughter could be heard from across the room almost every time someone made a joke. "I'm glad he's happier. His smile now makes me want to smile too." I stated over lunch with Yacchi, a friend I have known since kindergarten and have been very close with. "So you're saying that even if he's happy without you, you'll be happy?" She asked in clear shock, knowing that I will do what was best for me and honestly, that wasn't the best. "Yeah. I mean, you want to see the person you love be happy right?" I asked, taking my time to finish my food knowing that Yacchi was a super slow eater. "Yeah, but it really isn't like you to put yourself at a disadvantage." With that, I just shrugged.

At the same time, Hinata and Kageyama were on the way to (subject class), "Oi, I know it's pretty insensitive of me, but why did you break up with (Name)? I thought you loved her." Hinata asked, hoping not to strike a nerve. "Honestly, I don't know. I just thought she would be happy without me since I'm always giving her trouble." Kageyama confessed, not wanting to look at his friend since he knew the facial expression he would be making. "HUH!? YOU'RE SAYING YOU JUST LET A GORGEOUS LADY GO BECAUSE OF YOUR LOW SELF CONFIDENCE!?" Hinata blasted out and Kageyama made a mental note to murder his ass later on. "No, I mean not because of my low self confidence but, URGH. Whatever, look she's so much happier without me." Kageyama pointed out as both of them entered the class to see me smiling and laughing with Yacchi. 'She looks so lovely...' Kageyama thought, as he took a seat next to the window and stared intently at my direction. "Do you realize he's been staring at you?" Yacchi whispered as the teacher came in and ordered us back to our seats. "So? Doesn't mean anything. Probably thinking that he made the right choice to leave me." I said without even thinking about it, then approached to the seat next to Kageyama.

'Kageyama... There's so much things I want to say'
I thought, scribbling my thoughts onto my notebook and blatantly ignoring everything the teacher says though it was a few weeks away from mid years.
'I still love you. Forever yours, (Name)'
with that, I flipped to a fresh page hoping that no one would read or take a peek at the contents of the previous page. I averted my eyes to the side to see Kageyama furiously writing something in his notebook, 'Nerd' I chuckled and decided to listen for the last 15 minutes.

~Kageyama POV~
'I know I'm not good with words of affection, but every 'I love you' that I said has always been from the bottom of my heart. Maybe this meant alot more since I lost you. I love you (Name), I really do. Lots of love, Tobio'
I quickly flipped to the next page to continue busying myself with class but it was no use, her presence was still there with me no matter what. I could feel tears threatening to emerge, but I calmed my emotions and got back to trying to listen in class, but what I heard, never got processed into my brain. '(Name) must really be focusing better now with me out of the way. You're going to go far, princess.' I thought as I admired her focused form for the last 15 minutes of (Subject) class. 

~3rd person~

Anyone could've seen the love they still had for each other. But neither of them were willing to admit. Either too shy or because both wanted to move on with their own lives. Whatever the reason was, there was so many things that both parties wanted to say to each other but they only walked past each other like nothing much were to be said between them. 'I love you' both will think to themselves but none would say it out. 

~The end~

Okay. So normally I would end my stories on a high note but not this because this is coming from personal experiences. Honestly, I had to stop writing this for awhile because I got too affected by it as I recalled the memories. No, the end part was something that I hope could happen but in my case, it's a one sided love thing. I know there are many of you out there reading this either can relate or are going through this stage right now but let me tell you one thing, you are not alone in this fight to move on. You are entitled to your own happiness. Don't let someone who can't cherish you, ruin your chance on happiness. Yes, it is difficult but it's not impossible. You are not alone. I am here for you guys if you need help or need a listening ear. I understand how it feels but please don't give up. Let's move on together alright? (: Hope you guys enjoyed it! Sorry it took so long hehe. :D