Before the teen life of Renesmee Carlie Cullen~ pre-sequeal.

Chapter 10, Missing you.

just like to say a big thank-you to everyone that has read my book and (this is just for family who read until the commer) congratz to David Nugent and his girlfriend Chloe for having a beautiful baby girl Rose-Emme, ALSO any suggestions will be taken abroad and please forgive me for not uploading quicker love you all for reading and following, you guys are the best and have kept me writing thank-you once again for all your help and support LUVXXXLauraXXX

.P.O.V. Renesmee,

Is this what love sick feels like i haven't ate i know its only for a couple of hours but its still a gap for me, i sat on the couch with a bowl of soup and my bed quilt snuggling to my teddy, Lewis, it was like when i was sick but when people tried to talk to me i wouldn't answer.
I walked up to my room and lay on my bed looking at nothing in the dark, i closed my eyes and held the necklace that will had gave me, and when i asked him why his response was 'just because'. Light came creeping into my room, as well as the screeching sound of my door creeping open,
"Ness?" the warm voice i always loved to hear asked, "are you okay? you parents wont tell me what happened they said ask you." he said sitting on the edge of my bed stroking my leg, i stayed quiet for a couple of seconds until he spoke, "look Ness i cant help if you don't speak, just tell me i might be able to fix it." he lay down next to me and cuddled me,
"i doubt you can fix a broken heart." i said whiping a way the tear that mannaged to escape my eye silently,
"Oooww ness," he said plunging me towards his chest, "trust me you weren't in love." he looked into my eyes as i looked into his, "when your in love you'll know it he'll make you feel warm and gooy in side when he touches you, it'll be a bumpy ride but you'll get through it because you love each other." he said cuddling me, "common lets go down we can play anything you want or i could take you down to LaPush and you could talk to Rach and Emily?"
"yeah id like that." i said pulling away from his warm embrace.

The car ride took not as much time as i remember, i noticed everything about the movment of  the car but not my surrondings or the time, which i was usally good at remembering. the ride was much bumpyer, because my moms car rode more soft and adjusted with the road where as jakes truck was old and did not nigotiate with the rode. I was ten miles away when i felt a small tap on my shoulder,
"Ness?" i turned to look at jake,
"hum?"
"were here, the girls are inside. me and the guys are gonna play coupple card games in the back gimmy a shout if you need me or wanna go home, kay?" he said getting out of the truck coming round to my side and opening my door. Instead of an answer i just nodded and unbuckled my seat belt and walke towards the house with jake by my side but just slightly behind, probably mouthing words of encouragement to the pack or their mates.

I walked in and acted like the stone hearted teenager i was at this point in my life.
I slipped my headphones in my ears and sat down, I started to listen to the gogo dolls iris and drifted off into my own little world until I felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked up to see Rachel Black looking at me with eyes of pity. I removed the headphones from my ears and hugged her tightly.
"Wanna Talk about it?" she asked me, i nodded,
"he just left no goodbye, no call, no text, why would he do that to me after everything?" i said as tears came to my eyes,
"thats human boys for ya." she said, i felt Emily sit on the couch behind me holding her baby boy Dasan.
"hunny you just need to get over him, you'll find your mate one day." Emily said after burping Dasan.
"Yeah but how do vampires know when they've found their mate? I mean with a wolf you imprint, you know when it's happened, but with a vampire what is it? my dad said that their blood smells the best to you, but what if he's a vampire then what? I just feel like the odd one out. the out sider of our family, the dam hybrid!" I said becoming angry,
"no don't say that." jake said dropping the cards on the table and kneeling down in front of me, "your not some random dam hybrid, your one of I kind." he said holding my chin and forcing me to look at him, he began whipping my tears as he continued to talk, "yes you are different... but different is beautiful." he said, I couldn't hold my self back from hugging him then. he held me in his warm embrace which was comforting. Then an anoying buzzing came from my pocket,

"Hello?" i answered,
"Renesmee put Jake on the phone, its mom!" she said sounding worried, i handed my new phone to jake,
"yellow!" he said, i listened in,
"Jake renesmee will probably be listening in," busted, "but it cant wait, no it can edward gave me death glares leave make sure ness stays there."
"kay, ness stay here i know you heared that." i sighed leaning into the couch with my arms folded across my chest, as jake walked out i heard his chuckle, but then it stopped. i began to feel sick i knew somthing was wrong.

i ran outside,
"okay bye bells" Jake handed me my phone,
"what? whats wrong jake" i said, he just stood there his head looking at the floor, "jake tell me whats wrong or..."
"Will's mom was found dead in an abondoned car in the passenger side, Will and his dad and no wear to be found, the car turned off the road and crashed into a tree." he said,
How? How is this possable, my boyfriend leaves without a good-bye, his dad may be a possable criminal and his mom is dead and he is nowere to be found.

sorrrrry haven checked anything sorry xxxxlauraxxxx