Growing up is so hard:Smile book 4

chapter 13

mona pov

mona-*i walked inside school in a daze.i kept thinking about what me and jesse did.he is amazing like if you could feel what i felt you would be thinking about it too.i sighed.i was fine before he came into my life.i sat on the steps and vanessa sat on my lap.*what?

vanessa-who pissed on you?*i shook my head.*whats wrong?*i shrugged.she rolled her eyes and got up.*mo.

mona-v.*she rolled her eyes and derek walked over to us.i sighed and stood up.i pecked his lips.*hi.

derek-whats up with you?*i shook my head and waved my hand.*somethings up.tell me.

mona-look im fine ok.lets go before we get detention.*i walked over to the school and during all my classes jesse kept poppig into my head.im in lunch and i didnt even touch my food i just kept thinking about jesse.why wont he get out of my head.i felt a hand pinch my thigh super hard.i yelped and turned my head to derek since he did it.*what?

derek-what the fuck wrong with you?

mona-nothing damn leave me alone.*i got up and walked to the bathroom.he cant get in here so i sighed and rubbed my head.what am i going to do about my situation?i continued to think about it when i heard the door burst open.it was derek.he looked at me pissed.i sighed and braced myself for the beating i was going to recieve.i held my hands up and he punched me square in my face.i fell from the impact.he grabbed me by my hair.*

derek-keep fucking playing mona.*he bashed my head against the sink and left.i laid on the ground crying.why do i put up with this shit?i sighed in frustration and got up.i looked at my face and like i suspected not a single scratch.i sighed and left the bathroom.i walked  to the table and the bell rung so i grabbed my stuff and finished the rest of my classes.after school i was walked to the sub but ashley yelled my name.*

mona-whats up?

ashley-theres a party tonight.you down?*i shook my head.*

mona-im busy.

ashley-look derek wont hit you then ok?hes a coward.

mona-how did

ashley-he did that to me.*i stood there shocked.*

mona-how could you be friends with him? 

ashley-hes a better friend than boyfriend.trust me.just please come ok?*terrance walked over to us.*

terrance-come on.*he kissed her cheek.*

ashley-please come?*i nodded and she smiled while walking ith terrance.im glad shes with him because they are perfect together.i continued home.when i got there i saw jesse's car in front of my door.i walked inside and i saw him sitting on the couch.he got up and looked at me with a smile on his face.*

jesse-hi.

mona-hi.*he smiled bigger and hugged me tight.i looked on the couch to see my mom.*hi mom.you let him in?*she nodded.*

brea-baby i have a question.*i shrugged and put my bags down.*has derek hit you before?*i sighed and crossed my arms.*mona im serious has he?*i shook my head and jesse looked at me sadly.*mona.

mona-what?

brea-take that attitude out of your voice.*i sighed.*answer my question.

mona-mom i did.

brea-so what about what jesse has on his phone?mona thats not right and you know that.

mona-i do.

brea-so why stay?

mona-has dad put his hands on you?*she shook her head so i shrugged.*

brea-mona you break up with him.

mona-why?

brea-hes hurting you.

mona-no hes not.

brea-mona that hit didnt hurt?*she showed me the video when he slaped me in the park.*

mona-no.its my business anyway.*i got up and ran to my room.i laid on my bed and started crying.i want to break up with him but i dont know how and i dont want to make things worst between us.i sighed feeling a migraine forming.i heard my door open so i turned my head to see jesse.he sat on my bed.*no sex jess.

jesse-i wasnt going to ask that but its always an offer.*i rolled my eyes.*why not dump him?

mona-i want to.

jesse-then do it.

mona-its not that simple jess.

jesse-whats not simple about it?

mona-i dont know how hes going to take it.

jesse-ill go with you.hes not going to hurt you anymore mo.i got you baby.*he scooted closer to me putting his hand on my thigh.*

mona-he can hurt you jess.

jesse-i can protect myself and you.youre gonna do it tomorrow ok?

mona-dont boss me.

jesse-bring him over like 2am.i know you sneak out for him and shit.i aint stupid.

mona-whatever.

jesse-i love you mo.*i didnt say anything.*you know you mine right?*i didnt say anything.i closed my eyes and tried to settle the migraine.i feel a kiss on my head,cheek,lips,then neck.he sucked on my neck a little making me bite my lip.i opened my eyes and he smiled at me.*i love you.

mona-i love you too.*he winked and left.i laid on my bed thinking of what i should do.i sighed and texted derek.heres the convo:*

mona-bae.

derek-boo.sup?

mona-2 cool wit u

derek-iight babe girl.

mona-iight.*i sighed and rolled over.i heard my door open so i turned to the door and it was jesse.he sat my stuff in front of my bed.*

jesse-dont forget about your homework and that youre my girl.

mona-whatever jess.*i rolled my eyes and he left.i sighed and set my alarm for 9 so i could do my homework and i went to sleep off the migraine.hopefully everything runs smooth with this break up.*

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