Before & After

Chapter 7: Coming to realization

Jason's point of view:
So now that Hannah and I are through, I feel so alone. I was  so used to her that I didn't realize how much my life revolves around her. Maybe I was wrong.  Maybe her and I were supposed to end up together. Now she has Josh and she's actually happy with him. She never was with me. Always complaining about not giving her my time like she deserves. She keeps on assuming that I love Kate. I'm only her best friend. She's like a sister to me nothing more.  Plus she feels the same way about me. She  even told me that when I asked her what she thought of our friendship. I known her for way too long to see her more than that. I feel so different without Hannah around. I never really appreciated her and now she's gone. I feel so weak without her. I made a mistake and I realize that when my heart burns for her. I don't know what to do. I really want her back but she is with Josh and I can't do nothing about it. She didn't even care that I broke up with her. It's like I don't matter to her anymore and that hurts me even more. The next week in school was so weird. Everything seemed so distant. I pretended like I didn't care but seeing my honey laughing in some other mans lap just hurt me. I need to get my princess back.
Kate's point of view:
Jason broke up with Hannah! I'm so relieved he finally did. Maybe he will finally realize that I'm the one for him and that I was there all along for him through these years. I went through his ups and his downs in life. I was always there for him at his worst and his best. Hannah never had the same relationship me and him have and probably won't ever. I'm so surprised she moved on so fast. I would have expected some healing process but no Jason was never that important to her. That's why he's already replaced by a kid who just came to comfort her. I'm so happy that she's not crawling back like she used to whenever he broke up with her. He would always accept her because he has a heart and he cares.

I was so disappointed when he texted me to say that he still cares about her and his feelings for her are still there.  I thought he would learn by now but I guess not. He only sees me as a friend and nothing more. We will never be anything more than that and it hurts me. I really want him. I need him. He needs to realize that. I part of me thinks he wants the same he just doesn't realize it yet but a part of me thinks he doesn't care. I'm just his little sister who he loves only in that way. If only I could be brave enough and tell him. I can't open up my feelings like that. What if he'll reject me ? That will break me forever. I can't open up to him like that especially after with what happened with Richard.

So I haven't used watt pad for years but now I'm back. I hope there is still some people reading my story but if not oh well. Anyway if you did read it hope u enjoyed.